I Only Want Things To Make Sense…

It’s been 7 long years since I started this journey of researching vaccines. This journey has taken me through many different stages. I went through a stage where I was a human sponge. I couldn’t stop researching and learning. I soaked it up and loved staying drenched. Then I went through a stage when I wanted to shout everything I learned from the rooftops. I started writing a book. I started writing a blog. This was also the stage when I lost friends. It wasn’t exactly the funnest stage, but it was a necessary part of my journey. During this time, I met a lot autism mommas, and I became part of a very real, very alive, passionate community of vaccine safety advocates.

I knew my vaccine research as a mom had been fulfilled through the decisions I made for my children, so why wasn’t I done? Why or how did I become a spokesperson? Why was I, as some of my old friends described me, “obsessed” with this topic? There were days when I wondered this myself.  But the Lord continued to confirm his plan for this journey, and there became a moment when this journey and my passion became crystal clear. It was my autism mommas. They captured my heart. They were the reason I fought for truth. They were the reason behind my relentless desire to research and educate others.

The more I got to know these mommas, the more I loved with them.
These are mommas just like me & you. 

In their own words: ”I didn’t ask for this fight. None of us did. We followed the rules. Did what we were told. Didn’t question authority. Trusted the “experts”. Showed up on time. Held them down. Over and over and over. Gave the antibiotics. Ignored our guts. Loaded them up on Tylenol. And chalked it all up to coincidence. We didn’t do anything to deserve this. Most certainly our children didn’t either. But I’ll be damned…I’ll be DAMNED…if I allow my daughter’s life and those of her generation like her…to be discounted, chalked up to the “greater good”, and poisoned at the hand of those she trusted without someone, someday being held responsible for what they did. I can forgive. I cannot, and will not, ever forget. And I cannot and will not ever give up.”  

So I keep fighting for truth. Their children’s lives matter. ALL children’s lives matter.

“A false polarity is perpetuated that positions deaths and injuries from disease as somehow more tragic than deaths and injuries from vaccines. These are equal tragedies. No child deserves to be written off as collateral damage in the war on disease.”

Where I’m at today feels like a lifetime away from where I was 7 years ago. I feel like I’ve been called to a new stage in this journey. I refuse to let my passion and my autism mommas be considered “controversial”. I’m not looking for debates or conflict. There was a stage during this vaccine journey, where I was very much involved in heated debates and uncomfortable conversations. That is not necessarily the role I wish to take anymore.

What I do wish for is Answers. Justice. Common sense. Logic. And Truth.

I recently read an article titled: Whooping Cough Vaccine Failures Increasing.
As someone who has been researching whooping cough for 7 years and has written articles and an entire chapter on this disease, the article caught my attention.

Two main points of the article:

Point #1: “Vaccinations nearly wiped out whooping cough more than 30 years ago, so the surge in cases in California and around the country has caught health officials off guard”

Really? They are surprised? 30 years ago people received ONE vaccine for pertussis. Today people receive 7 boosters. Why then are we having a surge in cases? And why can’t anyone figure it out? I know the reason why. The CDC has admitted it.

CDC: “The resurgence of WHOOPING COUGH is due to the vaccine causing an increased and more virulent toxin. The CDC acknowledges that whooping cough is recurring in highly vaccinated populations. They also concluded that there is a high secondary transmission rate from vaccinated individuals”

CDC : “Vaccinated adolescents and adults may serve as reservoirs for silent infection and become potential transmitters to unprotected infants. Therefore, even young, recently vaccinated children may serve as reservoirs and potential transmitters of infection.”

The Every Birth Article explains (in a simple & easy to understand explanation) the science behind why this surge is happening. And it’s not what we are told. But it’s the truth. Why does the truth have to be so controversial?


Point #2: “We know there are places around the country where there are large numbers of people who aren’t vaccinated,” said Dr. Anne Schuchat, the director for the National Center for Immunization and Respiratory Diseases at the CDC, “However, we don’t think those exemptors are driving this current wave.”

What then is driving this current wave? The media, school officials, and pediatricians are doing an excellent job making us believe that “vaccine exemptions have caused the worst pertussis outbreak in 70 years”, but even the spokespeople for the CDC know that’s not true.

An investigation by California doctors has revealed that California’s 2010 whooping cough centered around children who had already received the whooping cough vaccine. The study was led by infectious disease specialist Dr. David Witt, and was initiated after an unusually large number of whooping cough cases were admitted to Kaiser Permanente Hospital in San Rafael, California in 2010. The doctors discovered that 81 percent of patients had received the full series of whooping cough shots, and 11 percent had received only some of the shots. The remaining 8 percent had not received any immunizations for whooping cough.

I just want things to make sense. Why don’t vaccines work? Why can’t we admit that whooping cough is a disease of the vaccinated? Why is the vaccine schedule increasing year after year? Why are more & more boosters added? Why are we the most highly vaccinated culture in the history of medicine, yet our children are sicker and dumber than every before? Why are children being taken out of their moms arms, against their will, to be vaccinated during pediatrician visits? Why is there an entire generation of parents begging us to listen to the stories about their children? Why are there 1 in 50 children with autism? Why are 1 in 6 children learning disabled or suffering from asthma, allergies, etc… Why so many autoimmune disorders?

In an excellent post called “They Say”, written by my talented friend and one of the co-founders of The Thinking Moms Revolution, the article left me asking “Why?” Why do “They” tell us all these things that aren’t true?

I don’t want to be controversial. Some days I forget that this journey still is. My inbox is filled with messages asking for help on a daily basis. I can hardly keep up anymore. It’s filled with mothers asking for answers. The stories are heartwrenching. None of it makes sense. Unless of course you take a step back and are willing to question the norm.

Age of Autism recently posted an article called “We Can’t Unfriend Our Lives”. I know what it means to get de-friended. I’ve been there. I’m in a season now however, where for every de-friend I’ve received in the past, I have a dozen new friend requests from mommas who need help. In the article, one of the autism mommas that captured my heart and has become my dear friend, writes: “I am so flipping tired. I miss sleeping. But most of all, I miss the comforting notion that everything is okay. Because it’s not. I get why my weak friend has to de-friend. It’s not at all okay and my presence in her life is a constant reminder of that. I am a part of the 1% of moms who know what happened to their kids and will not shut up about it. The 1% that is spreading the word to the other 99%. Can you please help us bump that number up to 2%? Be one of the parents who get involved. Figure it out and pay it forward. Because most of us have been up since 1 am and we are tired”

So this is why I do what I do. Not to be controversial. Not because I’m obsessed. Not because I like conflict and debates. But because I want to make things right. And I want things to make sense. I want to know why we are told to give our children a product to “protect” them, but that product doesn’t work? And then, when the same children we were told to “protect” are harmed by that product, no-one listens. I want these mommas voices to be heard. They are tired.
And I’m not.

I came to a cross-roads a few years ago, when I felt like this journey was over. I remember thinking “I’m done”. I tried to quit. The Lord kept giving me Proverbs 31:8-9 “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves. Ensure justice on those being crushed”. There was a period over a couple of weeks when I think a different person randomly sent me this verse about a dozen times. I quickly got the hint. During this same time, I couldn’t go anywhere without meeting a mother and her vaccine injured child. And then I realized, how can I quit these moms? They can’t quit their lives. They represent the 1%, but when they get tired and weary, I’m proud to say that I’m the 2% that will step in and fight for them. That’s why I started the series called Lioness Arising Mothers. Their stories need to be told.

I’m done fighting against people who don’t want to listen. But I will never be done fighting for the people who desperately need others to listen.

Will you listen? 

44 thoughts on “I Only Want Things To Make Sense…

  1. I read stories like yours and every day I send my prayers to parents like you.
    Because of your voice I listened before my boy could be hurt by the doctors, nurses, friends, and everyone else in particular who questioned the reasoning behind my “Over my dead body will anyone vaccinate my child.”
    Because of your heartbreaking story, my son doesn’t have to have one.
    I listened, and let that comfort you in some small way.
    Every day, prayers are coming your way!


  2. Thank you for fighting this fight even when you don’t have to! Having immunity-compromised kids is often overwhelming. So many fights we need to fight, so many more we want to fight, but never ever enough time.


  3. my 2 year old baby was diagnosed may 4th 2012 at 10:30am and this is a day that will forever change my life. I’m struggling daily bc I feel so guilty bc he was vaccinated I don’t know what to do w my now 10 month old daughter I’ve read so much that it could be vaccines I’m lost idk what to do keep vaccinating or not I need help I’m lost I’m guilty I feel terrible 😦


    1. You have no reason to feel guilty, you did not do this to your child. The famous 1998 study that claimed a link between vaccines and autism was retracted, and debunked.


      1. Sarah,
        Dr. Wakefield’s study was not debunked. Judge Mitting in March restored the licenses of Dr. Wakefield”s colleagues Drs. Walker-Smith and Murch, saying that there had been no fraud, the doctors had treated the sick children appropriately, and the GMC had used shallow reasoning to reach false conclusions that led them to take these doctors’ licenses. Dr. Wakefield’s insurance would not pay for him to be part of this lawsuit. The whole witch hunt we saw two years ago was orchestrated by Big Pharma to try to keep parents from learning the truth about how the MMR often causes autism and/or bowel disease for as long as possible. Dr. Wakefield only pointed out what hundreds of thousands of parents have since observed in their own children, that they regress into autism within days or weeks of the MMR.


      2. gianelloni: I was asking cia for a credible source to back up the claims he or she made that the vindication of John Walker-Smith also vindicated Andrew Wakefield and his study.

        My main point here is that Wakefield was not vindicated. His colleague was cleared, but Wakefield was not and neither was his study. You will not find any credible news source reporting that the study was vindicated. Because it did not happen. There is news galore on Walker Smith. There are countless blogs claiming that this in turn validates the whole mess. They can claim all they want, but it doesn’t make it true. The reason Walker-smith was exonerated of the charges against him was that his lawyers were able to prove that he participated not knowing of the fraud that was being committed by Wakefield.

        This is what the Guardian reported in March of this year:

        ‘Walker-Smith’s clinical role focused on treatment related to sick children, while his academic work included collaborating in research with Wakefield.

        “It had to decide what Professor Walker-Smith thought he was doing: if he believed he was undertaking research in the guise of clinical investigation and treatment, he deserved the finding that he had been guilty of serious professional misconduct and the sanction of erasure.

        “If not, he did not, unless, perhaps, his actions fell outside the spectrum of that which would have been considered reasonable medical practice by an academic clinician.

        “Its failure to address and decide that question is an error which goes to the root of its determination. The panel’s decision cannot stand. I therefore quash it.”‘


    2. Let me clarify: by “source”, I mean and actual credible NEWS agency. Not a blog, not a commentary. Not a link back to another post on this site. Not naturalnews.com.


      1. How about starting with science? Read these 10 studies preformed at accredited universities and research institutions. When you are finished, I can send you about 50 more.

        1. Hepatitis B Vaccination of Male Neonates and Autism
        Annals of Epidemiology , Vol. 19, No. 9 ABSTRACTS (ACE), September 2009: 651-680,
        p. 659 CM Gallagher, MS Goodman, Graduate Program in Public Health, Stony Brook University Medical Center, Stony Brook, NY

        2. Porphyrinuria in childhood autistic disorder: Implications for environmental toxicity
        Toxicology and Applied Pharmacology, 2006 Robert Natafa, Corinne Skorupkab, Lorene Ametb, Alain Lama, Anthea Springbettc and Richard Lathed, aLaboratoire Philippe Auguste, Paris, France, Association ARIANE, Clichy, France, Department of Statistics, Roslin Institute, Roslin, UK, Pieta Research

        3. Theoretical aspects of autism: Causes—A review
        Journal of Immunotoxicology, January-March 2011, Vol. 8, No. 1 , Pages 68-79
        Helen V. Ratajczak, PhD Autism

        4. Gender-selective toxicity of thimerosal.
        Exp Toxicol Pathol. 2009 Mar;61(2):133-6. Epub 2008 Sep 3.
        Branch DR, Departments of Medicine and Laboratory Medicine and Pathobiology, University of Toronto, Ontario, Canada. Abstract

        5.Autism: A Brain Disorder, or A Disorder That Affects the Brain?
        Clinical Neuropsychiatry, 2005
        Martha R. Herbert M.D., Ph.D., Harvard University

        6. A Case Series of Children with Apparent Mercury Toxic Encephalopathies Manifesting with Clinical Symptoms of Regressive Autistic Disorder
        Journal of Toxicology and Environmental Health, 2007

        7. In vivo study of hepatitis B vaccine effects on inflammation
        and metabolism gene expression Heyam Hamza • Jianhua Cao • Xinyun Li • Shuhong Zhao

        8. Bridging from Cells to Cognition in Autism Pathophysiology: Biological
        Pathways to Defective Brain Function and Plasticity
        American Journal of Biochemistry and Biotechnology 4 (2): 167-176, 2008

        9. Metabolic biomarkers of increased oxidative stress and impaired methylation capacity in children with autism American Journal of Clinical Nutrition, Vol. 80, No. 6, 1611-1617, December 2004
        Department of Pediatrics, University of Arkansas for Medical Sciences, and the Arkansas Children’s Hospital Research Institute

        10. Comparison of Blood and Brain Mercury Levels in Infant Monkeys Exposed to Methylmercury or Vaccines Containing Thimerosal Environmental Health Perspectives, Aug 2005.Thomas Burbacher, PhD [University of Washington].


  4. Wow, I hope more read this article. I went through vaccinations with my kids years ago, but I was the “negligent” mom, always showing up months, years late for vaccine appts. When I read an article a few years ago that adults had to get re-vac. for certain potential illnesses, I said never again. Don’t stop educating people about this issue of vaccination.


  5. Stay strong and stay the course that God has so clearly set you on. He will give you all that you need to follow His will. This information is so needed !!!!! I will pass it on and pray that it touches many. God bless you! I will be following your blog – so glad I found you! Kelly


  6. Thank you. All I can say is Thank You! Please keep posting information like this. I am too tired to look it up for myself. I am too busy handling meltdowns and sensory overload.


  7. Thank you! I feel a little less crazy after reading this blog. I research vaccines and autism daily. My son is healthy … but I can’t consent to the remainder of the CDC schedule as I just don’t have the information I need to say “yes”. I feel compelled to share much of what I come across, shouldn’t everyone be taking a closer look at this?


  8. I can relate Jessica. I’m one of those that people ask “Why do you do this?” I want to make sure that my children never have to have another vaccine, but that isn’t the only reason. I have way too many great autism momma friends that I understand, believe, and agree with. And as you say, they are tired and I am not. I know now that I will NEVER shut up.


  9. “So this is why I do what I do. Not to be controversial. Not because I’m obsessed. Not because I like conflict and debates. But because I want to make things right. And I want things to make sense. I want to know why we are told to give our children a product to “protect” them, but that product doesn’t work? And then, when the same children we were told to “protect” are harmed by that product, no-one listens. I want these mommas voices to be heard. They are tired.
    And I’m not.”

    YES YES YES!!! Right there with you sister! BEAUTIFUL post Jess! I totally could have written this word for word! ❤ you girl! We have to keep on keepin on and follow where ever this journey takes us! I am amazed by the things I've learned and the people I've met on this journey.


  10. My son has PANS and it is exhausting. I get comments from family and friends on how to handle my distraught son and all I can think is “never again”. Never again will I cave to what others tell me to do. Thank you for your compassion. Too many kids, too little concern.


  11. I was also late with my children’s shots and never let them give more than one at a time (at my mother’s urging.) I think somehow this proved to be just enough to side-step these horrible consequences. You are helping so many people…
    current and future generations of entire families. Keep up your advocacy and lead, lead, lead the tired, confused, and overwhelmed thru this struggle. You are doing irreplaceable work!


  12. THANK YOU! You took the words out of my mouth so many times…? Why does the truth have to be so controversial?”. And beyond that I am also always just wanting for things to be made right and to make sense like they once did…why can’t it just be the way it should. Why can’t it be okay like before? Almost like the last two years have been a bad dream….not possibly real. Not my child. Why can’t my son be the child he was meant to be…why can’t he do and say the things he so clearly WANTS to….why oh why did I hold him down and trust in the greater good. It’s like once you squeeze the toothpaste out..you can’t put it back in. We can’t un-know…I can’t un-vaccinate. Oh God if only I could.

    Today on Facebook I wrote on my status…”Wishes her days were filled with trips to Gymboree and Storytime at the Library, games of Old Maid and conversations with William about Super Heroes….but they’re not. They consist of therapy schedules, supplement schedules and hours of research and pure unconditional love from my beautiful son. Hopefully some day they will be filled with those other simple pleasures but until then I will keep fighting. And I won’t be silenced. I will be his voice.”

    And you know what I will be his voice. But honestly between you and me…I am tired….so tired. And I am sick of fighting the world…saddened by the loss of my innocence and hope I had once had. I’m even scared of everything from what we should eat to the fillings in my teeth I have had since childhood. Oh I can barely remember what it felt like before…before…hmmmm….everything will now always be classified as before or after. I just realized that to a degree. I’m caught up in the journey and the fight. And sometimes it’s nice to know I can rest…that someone else is on top of it. Someone who knows…who cares…and amazingly not someone who was as we say “drafted” but someone who simply chose to do the right thing. You have so much insight and your words ring with truth. THANK YOU for simply being you and being there. It’s to know others have my back. Even though you’d never wish it on anyone…it’s always nice to know you’re not alone.



    1. Oh, Courtney, my heart goes out to you. I know I am about a year late here. I hope you have found some good answers and that life has gotten better. My family was in terrible straits for years with my sister, before as much was known about autism and how to help. I consider it a weighty but blessed mission to warn as many people as I can, on facebook and in Kinko’s and wherever else.


  13. Thx for sharing, as always. Count me in the 2%! 🙂 Trying to continue to educate myself and get the courage to speak up and stand up for the injustice begin done to this generation of children. You always motivate Jess….thx for all you do! Lifting up a prayer for all these mammas right now!


  14. I’ve researched vaccines for about 2 1/2 years now. I Started to look into it before my first daughter was born. We chose a delayed scheduled with about half of the vaccines. After reading book after book, article after article, I certainly feel so identified by this article. I am also now confident that it’s people like us that have to warn other parents. As Audrey Hepburn said, we have two hands, one for helping ourselves and one to help others.
    Although ALL vaccines cause brain injury, we were fortunate that our now 20 month old speaks over 100 words, and has milestones of older children and has had no real reason to go to pediatritian other than the typical checkups and 2 mild infections (to which we used homeopathic remedies).
    We stopped vaxing at the beginning of this year and I’m confident this was the wisest decision for the health of our child.
    We are a minority, but a growing one. A minority that has chosen to research and question the pharmaceutical industry and its professionals (and i’ve been called naive, ignorant, etc. for this), and the food industry. In my opinion this are the primary threats to our children’s health today.
    I’m working on compiling my research and probably next year will start sharing it over the internet. BTW thanks for the healthy recipes!!!


  15. Oh I love this post and thank you for stepping up and staying strong. We have a child on the ASD and it’s not easy but is a very mild. As I too have had people de-friend me it never makes me upset or sad, because I know that I will always help those that want my help.


  16. Oh my God…You hit it on every nerve of my being! Reading your words stirred up so many different emotions in this tired Momma…from goosebumps to tears rolling down my face. Thank you so much for wanting to be on our side…speaking out the truth, being a true friend! As many other Mommas have said, we did not ask for this…we did what we thought was right! As for all those friends that couldn’t handle anything but their perfect little world, we didn’t need you in the long run anyway….yes it may of hurt for a little while, but that is not a true friend! We need friends like you, that will listen, speak out, and want to be part of the 2%!


  17. I will not vaccinate. My mother did not vaccinate us in the 70s because of the way she grew up, the chiropractic degree she was working on, and 2 vaccine injured babies in the neighborhood (one of which turned blue and died of SIDS on the same day). She chose to be aware and so I have heard this conversation since I could comprehend. I have been reading about vaccine injury since I was a teenager and watching for the last 20 years as it has only gotten worse…and how our government protects the vaccine manufacturers from lawsuits. How greed is destroying our children. I have been defending the choice to not vaccinate and weeping for those who keep getting hurt.

    I applaud your efforts. I have tried to share with my friends, but I live outside of DC, and there are many people I know who’s parents are high-up in FDA, NIH, CDC and NASA. These friends of mine cannot see the “science” behind not vaccinating. They beat me up all the time, thinking I’ll somehow change. I have expanded my research and blast them back with the real science. I’m getting de-friended too. I’m looking for a new community.

    I have started to look elsewhere for support in what I know to be true and I am not as tired as an autism momma, but I am tired of knowing in my gut that this country is being destroyed by greed and it takes sometimes a child’s destruction to get just one person to pay attention. This is just not acceptable. I’m tired of feeling powerless, and then I come across mom’s like you. I thank you. I am reminded, we are not alone, and we cannot be tired, not like those who are hit the hardest.

    I pray for change, and I pray that more people pray so our prayers have greater strength to change this world we live in. Blessings


    1. Elizabeth, you are a breath of fresh air! And I love that your mom knew truth from her chiropractic degree. Chiropractors are some of the best doctors we know! I have to say that after the season where I lost friendships, God restored that season ten-fold. I have an amazing community of strong, like-minded, amazing mommas. Are you on fb? We have a community called “Great Mothers Questioning Vaccines”. Started about 2 years ago. It’s a closed-private fb group (the admins monitor it well), but it’s grown to about 5,000 members. I’d be happy to add you to the group.

      I too pray for change everyday. Blessings to you as well! Jessica


  18. This message is such a blessing to me tonight. My second child is unvaccinated. My first child should be, because I took on the research as a young mother and knew better, sadly, I didn’t have the backbone to stand up to his doctor and left each visit crying with regret praying for strength to stand up for my child. some age and even more research afforded me the power to say no with my daughter and I have two beautiful healthy children 11 & 3.5 (the oldest with allergies and asthma, but I know how much worse it could be)

    I am ashamed to say I am from and live in Mississippi, one of two states with no vaccine rights. I am the LONE soul in my circle of friends and acquaintances who questioned, researched and refused vaccines. I’ve been through the sponge and shout it through the mountain top stages & it all fell on death ears earning me all kinds of labels. I discovered many of my ‘friends’ were simply defensive because they hadn’t researched, and so what if they did…they didn’t have a choice because so many of their babies were headed to preschool after 6 week maternity leave was up. no vaccine in mississippi = no daycare or school.

    Today, I’ve accepted homeschool as my only choice for Pailyn, but the state, just this year passed a mandate Dtap booster that my son will have to have before starting 7th grade next year. How can I possibly take my son, who has watched me fight for and protect his little sister and heard my story of regret for having him vaccinated…how can I allow him to be injected?! what message does that send to him? He is too smart for his own good and has taken an interest in my research. He is smart enough to know it isn’t in his best interest to be inoculated. He is thriving in his school. My options for him suck!!

    anyway…i’ve spent a long while mostly quiet on the issue because there just wasn’t anyone who wanted to listen. Recently, a mississippi group that was all but dead was breathed new life by a teacher working as a secretary at a school. she has healthy children, but was sick of seeing parents struggle with getting their vaccine injured children medical exemptions at the school where she worked. Parents of vaccine injured and autistic children are now coming out of the woodwork to fight to pass an amendment that will allow for religious and philosophical vaccine exemption in Mississippi. I am on the front lines, consumed with seeing this through.

    When I first began my journey years ago, it was for me and my children. I wanted to do the right thing for them, I liked being knowledgable about vaccines. Today, though…I have a new perspective. I fight for the mommas I have met. For their precious, damaged and scared children. I fight against the greed, the government, big pharma…they system. I have never felt the passion I do for assuring victory for these women who have shared their stories with me. God is amazing in the relationships he has brought my way through this journey. Real bonds and loving friendships are being formed that far exceed the superficial friends I lost on facebook because ignorance was too bliss for me to dirty up their feed with real life.

    Our group has struck just the right balance in our angle. “we are NOT anti-vaccine, we are PRO parental rights.” …that is our mantra and it’s non-threatening tone is opening minds. We pray it works in politics as well. Will you please pray for Mississippi? So many precious families need to be granted the right to choose. Thank you so much for sharing this story…it was just the right thing at the right time for me!
    -Lindey Magee
    Mississippi Parents for Vaccine Rights


    1. Lindsey, THANK-YOU so much for taking the time to share your journey with me. I really enjoyed reading it. How can I help you in Mississippi? I’m in New Orleans, so we are neighbors. My email is jessica@lavb.net. Message me so we can talk further. Jessica


  19. i can not at all tell you how thankful i am for finding this blog. I wish i would have found it a year ago….BEFORE i gave my daughter 2 rounds of Dtap and the HIB. We stopped after that because of a “minor” reaction. Minor in CDC terms (rolling eyes).

    Like the rest of the parents, we were just doing waht we were told. I had a “feeling” not to vaccinate, but being more logical myself (so is my husband), i thought it unwise to trust a gut rather then a practiced doctor (rolling eyes again). But, i think God used my “gut” feeling, coupled with my daughters reaction to say “see, I really DONT want you vaccinating her.” Had i never had that “gut” feeling, or had she never had the reaction… we would have jsut kept on vaxing.

    I believe she had the reaction because God was trying to show me that i DO need to listen to my gut (well his Spirit). And i am believing Him that even though she reacted, he will protect her from any longterm side effects.

    PS. Do you know of Doctor Tenpenny?


  20. Hey! You have a beautiful family and I am a fan of your blog. Quick question–where can I find a source for those CDC quotes? Google hasn’t helped me at all…


  21. Thank you for all you do!! I’m doing the same thing on my Romanian blog, trying to get other parents to do their research and then trust their instinct!
    I was lucky enough to be able to do my research before I got pregnant, so the fear factor didn’t stand a chance, because, as you point out, I noticed pretty quickly that in the allopathic paradigm nothing pretty much makes sense (it makes $en$e, however ;-)). Now my little boy is 5 and a half, perfectly healthy, never took any allopathic chemicals known as “medicine” and he is thriving 🙂
    God bless you!


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