It’s been 7 long years since I started this journey of researching vaccines. This journey has taken me through many different stages. I went through a stage where I was a human sponge. I couldn’t stop researching and learning. I soaked it up and loved staying drenched. Then I went through a stage when I wanted to shout everything I learned from the rooftops. I started writing a book. I started writing a blog. This was also the stage when I lost friends. It wasn’t exactly the funnest stage, but it was a necessary part of my journey. During this time, I met a lot autism mommas, and I became part of a very real, very alive, passionate community of vaccine safety advocates.
I knew my vaccine research as a mom had been fulfilled through the decisions I made for my children, so why wasn’t I done? Why or how did I become a spokesperson? Why was I, as some of my old friends described me, “obsessed” with this topic? There were days when I wondered this myself. But the Lord continued to confirm his plan for this journey, and there became a moment when this journey and my passion became crystal clear. It was my autism mommas. They captured my heart. They were the reason I fought for truth. They were the reason behind my relentless desire to research and educate others.
The more I got to know these mommas, the more I loved with them.
These are mommas just like me & you.
In their own words: ”I didn’t ask for this fight. None of us did. We followed the rules. Did what we were told. Didn’t question authority. Trusted the “experts”. Showed up on time. Held them down. Over and over and over. Gave the antibiotics. Ignored our guts. Loaded them up on Tylenol. And chalked it all up to coincidence. We didn’t do anything to deserve this. Most certainly our children didn’t either. But I’ll be damned…I’ll be DAMNED…if I allow my daughter’s life and those of her generation like her…to be discounted, chalked up to the “greater good”, and poisoned at the hand of those she trusted without someone, someday being held responsible for what they did. I can forgive. I cannot, and will not, ever forget. And I cannot and will not ever give up.”
So I keep fighting for truth. Their children’s lives matter. ALL children’s lives matter.
“A false polarity is perpetuated that positions deaths and injuries from disease as somehow more tragic than deaths and injuries from vaccines. These are equal tragedies. No child deserves to be written off as collateral damage in the war on disease.”
Where I’m at today feels like a lifetime away from where I was 7 years ago. I feel like I’ve been called to a new stage in this journey. I refuse to let my passion and my autism mommas be considered “controversial”. I’m not looking for debates or conflict. There was a stage during this vaccine journey, where I was very much involved in heated debates and uncomfortable conversations. That is not necessarily the role I wish to take anymore.
I recently read an article titled: Whooping Cough Vaccine Failures Increasing.
As someone who has been researching whooping cough for 7 years and has written articles and an entire chapter on this disease, the article caught my attention.
Two main points of the article:
Point #1: “Vaccinations nearly wiped out whooping cough more than 30 years ago, so the surge in cases in California and around the country has caught health officials off guard”
Really? They are surprised? 30 years ago people received ONE vaccine for pertussis. Today people receive 7 boosters. Why then are we having a surge in cases? And why can’t anyone figure it out? I know the reason why. The CDC has admitted it.
CDC: “The resurgence of WHOOPING COUGH is due to the vaccine causing an increased and more virulent toxin. The CDC acknowledges that whooping cough is recurring in highly vaccinated populations. They also concluded that there is a high secondary transmission rate from vaccinated individuals”
CDC : “Vaccinated adolescents and adults may serve as reservoirs for silent infection and become potential transmitters to unprotected infants. Therefore, even young, recently vaccinated children may serve as reservoirs and potential transmitters of infection.”
The Every Birth Article explains (in a simple & easy to understand explanation) the science behind why this surge is happening. And it’s not what we are told. But it’s the truth. Why does the truth have to be so controversial?
Point #2: “We know there are places around the country where there are large numbers of people who aren’t vaccinated,” said Dr. Anne Schuchat, the director for the National Center for Immunization and Respiratory Diseases at the CDC, “However, we don’t think those exemptors are driving this current wave.”
What then is driving this current wave? The media, school officials, and pediatricians are doing an excellent job making us believe that “vaccine exemptions have caused the worst pertussis outbreak in 70 years”, but even the spokespeople for the CDC know that’s not true.
An investigation by California doctors has revealed that California’s 2010 whooping cough centered around children who had already received the whooping cough vaccine. The study was led by infectious disease specialist Dr. David Witt, and was initiated after an unusually large number of whooping cough cases were admitted to Kaiser Permanente Hospital in San Rafael, California in 2010. The doctors discovered that 81 percent of patients had received the full series of whooping cough shots, and 11 percent had received only some of the shots. The remaining 8 percent had not received any immunizations for whooping cough.
I just want things to make sense. Why don’t vaccines work? Why can’t we admit that whooping cough is a disease of the vaccinated? Why is the vaccine schedule increasing year after year? Why are more & more boosters added? Why are we the most highly vaccinated culture in the history of medicine, yet our children are sicker and dumber than every before? Why are children being taken out of their moms arms, against their will, to be vaccinated during pediatrician visits? Why is there an entire generation of parents begging us to listen to the stories about their children? Why are there 1 in 50 children with autism? Why are 1 in 6 children learning disabled or suffering from asthma, allergies, etc… Why so many autoimmune disorders?
In an excellent post called “They Say”, written by my talented friend and one of the co-founders of The Thinking Moms Revolution, the article left me asking “Why?” Why do “They” tell us all these things that aren’t true?
I don’t want to be controversial. Some days I forget that this journey still is. My inbox is filled with messages asking for help on a daily basis. I can hardly keep up anymore. It’s filled with mothers asking for answers. The stories are heartwrenching. None of it makes sense. Unless of course you take a step back and are willing to question the norm.
Age of Autism recently posted an article called “We Can’t Unfriend Our Lives”. I know what it means to get de-friended. I’ve been there. I’m in a season now however, where for every de-friend I’ve received in the past, I have a dozen new friend requests from mommas who need help. In the article, one of the autism mommas that captured my heart and has become my dear friend, writes: “I am so flipping tired. I miss sleeping. But most of all, I miss the comforting notion that everything is okay. Because it’s not. I get why my weak friend has to de-friend. It’s not at all okay and my presence in her life is a constant reminder of that. I am a part of the 1% of moms who know what happened to their kids and will not shut up about it. The 1% that is spreading the word to the other 99%. Can you please help us bump that number up to 2%? Be one of the parents who get involved. Figure it out and pay it forward. Because most of us have been up since 1 am and we are tired”
So this is why I do what I do. Not to be controversial. Not because I’m obsessed. Not because I like conflict and debates. But because I want to make things right. And I want things to make sense. I want to know why we are told to give our children a product to “protect” them, but that product doesn’t work? And then, when the same children we were told to “protect” are harmed by that product, no-one listens. I want these mommas voices to be heard. They are tired.
And I’m not.
I came to a cross-roads a few years ago, when I felt like this journey was over. I remember thinking “I’m done”. I tried to quit. The Lord kept giving me Proverbs 31:8-9 “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves. Ensure justice on those being crushed”. There was a period over a couple of weeks when I think a different person randomly sent me this verse about a dozen times. I quickly got the hint. During this same time, I couldn’t go anywhere without meeting a mother and her vaccine injured child. And then I realized, how can I quit these moms? They can’t quit their lives. They represent the 1%, but when they get tired and weary, I’m proud to say that I’m the 2% that will step in and fight for them. That’s why I started the series called Lioness Arising Mothers. Their stories need to be told.
I’m done fighting against people who don’t want to listen. But I will never be done fighting for the people who desperately need others to listen.
Will you listen?