Project _________

I started this project a few months ago when I was told that my views on vaccines are just “one individual opinion”. I agreed. I am only one person. When I am asked my thoughts and views on things, it doesn’t matter how much research I’ve done or how many studies I’ve read, I am still only ONE person. This thought that my views only represent ONE person kept ringing in my head. This word: “ONE” struck a nerve. I thought….how can I represent myself as more than ONE person.


So I posted a question on facebook. It read:

“Moms who don’t vaccinate. I’m working on a project. Please tell me in one word, one sentence, or one paragraph why you have made this decision. Or if you were a momma who did vaccinate and then stopped. Or if you did vaccinate and your child is vaccine injured, What is the ONE word, ONE sentence, or ONE paragraph you would like to share”

I had no idea what to expect. I received over 100 answers. I knew that in those 100 answers, I would find an underlying theme. A common answer that united the decision. And that’s what I would name the Project.

I honestly thought that common answer would be TRUTH and that I would name the project…Project Truth.

But there was a different theme. A few dozen responses in, I realized an overwhelming common answer. This mutual thing that all these mommas had in common was the same thing I have always hoped and prayed for mommas to follow. I couldn’t believe how prevalent it was in every answer. But then again, why was I surprised? This common thing that we all share is a God given gift to us. God gives ALL mothers this thing. Over the years, I have been crushed and saddened as I watch this thing get stripped away from mothers, one well-baby visit at a time. But all along I knew mothers had it. What is that one thing?




Every mother has instinct. Some bring it to their first pediatricians visit and it’s as simple as one question: “Are these vaccines safe?” The pediatrician ensures the mother that yes, of course vaccines are safe. And just like that, the pediatrician has spoken on behalf of the mothers instinct. And poof! The instinct is gone. The still small voice is still there, and almost every mother I talk to who went against their instinct, shares how they still did not have peace, but they went ahead and ignored their instinct. Because pediatricians always know best, right?

My prayer is that every mother would take that instinctual question…and not stop researching until she is met with total and complete peace.


What I’ve found over the years is that we all learn differently.

Some women learn better with just ONE word at a time.  One word that catches their attention and taps into their instinct. Some women learn better with a sentence or a paragraph. Or a book or ten books or a hundred books. Some women like to learn from personal stories. Others like to learn from published studies. I’ve never met a mother who wants to learn about vaccines and spends her days on the vaccine manufacturers website. That is not where instinct leads you. Instinct leads you to conduct thorough research that is not produced by the very people with financial incentives. Instinct leads you to question with a fine tooth comb and to not stop until every question is answered. Instinct does not accept a 2 minute answer from a pediatrician. Especially when the answer does nothing more than put fear into a parent.


I’ve been researching vaccines for 8 years now. I’ve estimated that I’ve put in over 5,000 hours of research. However, when I first started, I started off with 2 words. First let me not forget that my INSTINCT gave me two words: SAFETY & EFFECTIVENESS. I was pregnant with my first child. It did not make sense to me that my baby was going to be born vaccine deficient and that the only way she would live a healthy, safe, & protected life was through endless amounts of vaccines. Starting from the day she was born (Hep B). So I needed to make sure that the product I was told my baby had to have, was SAFE & EFFECTIVE. I took those two words and never stopped. I’m so thankful I followed my instinct.

I found that this product called vaccines was not safe and not effective. The risk/benefit ratio suddenly became a risk/risk ratio.

There were waaaaay too many unanswered questions. Why has the current vaccine schedule never been studied? There has never been a single study done on the current vaccine schedule. The combined doses of vaccines have never been tested. Not once. Ever. These sort of facts didn’t sit well with my instinct. I didn’t care what my well-intention pediatrician told me. She could look me in the face all day and tell me vaccines were perfectly safe. Show me the safety studies. Where are they?


I’m often amazed at how pediatricians are put on a throne of vaccine expertise. Yes, they went to medical school. That still does not make them an expert in Immunology. Or an expert over your intuition. In the newly release book Vaccine Illusion, written by a Ph.D Immunologist : “I never imagined myself in this position, least so in the very beginning of my Ph.D. research training in immunology. In fact, at that time, I was very enthusiastic about the concept of vaccination, just like any typical immunologist. However, after years of doing research in immunology, observing scientific activities of my superiors, and analyzing vaccine issues, I realized that vaccination is one of the most deceptive inventions the science could ever convince the world to accept.” – Dr. Tetyana Obukhanych earned her Ph.D. in Immunology from the Rockefeller University, New York, NY and has done postdoctoral research at Harvard Medical School, Boston, MA and Stanford University School of Medicine, Stanford, CA.

Sadly, pediatricians do not receive this type of training or conduct this type of research in immunology. Pediatricians are not vaccine experts. So when a mother puts her instinct into the hands of a well meaning pediatrician, most often, the answers are not met with peace because the “answers” don’t sit well.

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As I continued to read through the 100 answers I received, it was so refreshing to see that instinct outweighed a pediatrician. And that instinct eventually led to experts who HAVE conducted the proper research. Proper research can and does and will confirm what instinct always knew. Instinct leads to truth. Parents who follow their instinct are met with feelings of peace and clarity. Educated. Empowered. Informed.

Parents ARE the experts over the decisions that they make for their children’s health. In the end, no-one else will be held accountable for the outcomes.

I can’t wait to share all the answers I received. So many times, I read the words:
“A feeling”
“Still small voice”
“Holy Spirit”

WOW! The answers from this project have me more amazed seeing firsthand the gift of a MOTHER’S INSTINCT being played out. Mothers instinct is bigger than fears and myths and lies and propaganda and everything else that the vaccine industry is built on. Sort through all the nonsense and there lies truth.


So who are these parents of unvaccinated children? How did they arrive at their decision?

Researchers from the CDC published a study in the Journal of Pediatrics. It showed that children who hadn’t received any shots at all tended to come from educated families who had “parents who expressed concerns regarding the safety of vaccines and indicated that medical doctors have little influence over vaccination decisions for their children”.

The study ended saying: ”It’s an excellent example of how more education and awareness translates to better health. Parents are gradually waking up to the dangers of vaccines. Those who have a university education and a well paid job, are in a better position to research vaccinations and know their rights. Education is power and they and those most invested in health and research are most likely to avoid vaccinations at all costs, a trend that is welcome and timely for future generations”.


For me personally, my decision became one of peace and clarity and gratitude that I had a choice and I was able to make a choice based on my instinct, and confirmed over and over again by years and years of research. I’ve shared briefly about my own journey in a few different posts called “I HOPE YOU’VE DONE YOUR RESEARCH” & “I ONLY WANT THINGS TO MAKE SENSE”.

I cannot wait to share all of the answers. I will be sharing them in ONE word, ONE sentence, and ONE paragraph answers. We are all only ONE person. But together, we represent ONE answer: MATERNAL INSTINCT.

Which brings me to my favorite quote ever. Written by Dr. Wakefield. (By the way, if you are not familiar with the truth about Dr. Wakefield and have only heard media soundbytes on him, please research the truth about Dr. Wakefield. He has written an astounding book called “Callous Disregard: Autism and Vaccines — the Truth Behind a Tragedy”. He merely suggested that perhaps a connection between MMR vaccine and Autism deserved further study. That was it. And that was all it took for his entire medical career to get dragged through the mud. Dr. Wakefield is not finished though. I share about that (HERE). I have personal friends who still work with him on a daily basis. He is still helping thousands of families today. Just last week he spoke in Chicago with a panel of Thinking Moms and Doctors. Yes, doctors that get it.


Dr. Wakefield quote:

“To the parents I would say, trust your instinct above all else. When considering how to vaccinate your children, read, get educated, and demand fully informed consent and answers to your questions. When you are stonewalled or these answers are not to your satisfaction, trust your instinct. I say this as someone who has studied and engaged in the science and who has become aware of the limitations of our knowledge and understanding of vaccine safety issues. Maternal instinct, in contrast, has been a steady hand upon the tiller of evolution; we would not be here without it”


23 thoughts on “Project _________

  1. Thanks for all the work you do & have done. 8 years ago I spoke with my daughter about having a midwife when she became pregnant (she was newly married at the time) and also asked her to not vaccinate my grandchildren should & when she had them. She told me that she & her husband would discuss this. I am happy to say that neither of my grandchildren (ages 6-1/2 & 3-1/2 have never had vaccine one and have had very few health problems. Of course they were both breastfed till they were over a year old, they are fed nutrtious food & on rare occasions they get to visit Chick-Filet. Just had the opportunity today to view “The Greater Good” and think that every parent expecting a child should watch this.

    Keep on keeping on! You have my greatest admiration & support!


  2. Thank you for all your research. I am the grateful mother of six children and in the beginning I knew vaccines were wrong though I could not intelligibly explain why. It was just a ‘knowing’ I had that I believe came from Jesus. Now I can better defend my position but I am so thankful to know there are many other mothers choosing to follow their God-given ‘instinct’.


  3. Thank you so much for posting this. If I had seen that question posted on Facebook I would have answered the same way – Instinct, prayer, Holy Spirit , the still small voice of God encouraging me to question vaccines. Your posts always resonate with me, but this one especially did. My whole body and soul is shouting AMEN!! Thank you for all you do!

    -Fellow non-vaccinating mom


  4. I’m so sorry that my instinct didn’t awaken until it was too late. I was a firm believer in the the medical field and all it offered. I even recall asking my pediatrician . . . “why do I see posters and receive flyers encouraging me to vaccinate? Do parents really not want to vaccinate? Why would I NOT want my child to be immune to these diseases if an alternative is available?!” I swear, I had this conversation with the very same doc that vaccinated my child in the same visit she prescribed him antibiotics for an ear infection (I don’t think the conversation and vacc/ABT happened at the same visit, but wouldn’t THAT have been ironic!?). Where was my instinct then?? Probably in the same place it hid when I lined up at Costco with the senior citizens for my early flu shot just 25 months earlier . . . so barely pregnant I carried proof in my purse that I was — so they wouldn’t turn me away. Because my docs all said that it was in the best interest of my unborn child and myself to receive a flu vaccine when pregnant!! And they KNOW, right!?

    There are many straws that led us to our autism diagnosis, but I know without doubt that these two lapses of instinct are among the biggest. For two days after the 18 month vaccines/ABT . . . he broke out in a full body rash. I called doc and her first response was “well, it can’t be the vaccines” — yes, I SWEAR that’s exactly what she said!! Without any other inquiry. “Perhaps it’s the ABT, let’s try a different one.” Well, following this conversation, he began to lose skills and speech. Our until-this-time normally-developing target-meeting toddler started early intervention at 22 months and received his formal diagnosis at 26 months. Needless to say, neither he nor his older brother have been vaccinated since. My instinct is on high alert now.


  5. I loved this post so much! You’re such a wonderful writer! I am a proud momma of a beautiful non vaccinated boy 🙂 Can I ask something totally non vaccine related? How did you manage to invest so many time studying vaccines and still care for your beautiful family? Any time management tips you could share? Thank you 🙂


  6. I fit into the “instinct” pattern, too. When I read your first paragraph, I thought, “I don’t know why. I just knew, felt intensely, that it was wrong.”


  7. Love your writings and your WISDOM! I always thought, why would God make such a beautiful perfect creature in the womb and then we need needles to help that newborn baby develop an immune system? Wrong Wrong Wrong, all the way to PIG PHARMA pocket book.


  8. I always appreciate reading your posts, especially the ones where I continually am affirmed and informed regarding vaccines, vaccinations, and immune system functioning.

    Before becoming a mother, I went along with the system, wondering about vaccinations, but not putting forth any effort in determining/deciding. When Hun and I were discussing becoming a family of two (eventually adding children), he clearly and without a waver in his voice said, no vaccinations. I said ok. I explained that I’d wondered but wasn’t for sure. He said, it’s not happening, period. I still agreed, no question. At the time I worked with a child/ren who were vaccine-injured (autism, etc.) and their mother was adamant about her children’s demise into vaccine-injury world. I started to question more, though didn’t do the research still.

    It wasn’t until Baby boy was on the way that I began to research the ‘rules’ surrounding vaccination so I could be better prepared if for any reason our midwife-led birth experience needed to be altered (thankfully it wasn’t!). Already knowing we weren’t going to vaccinate, I didn’t much worry about it until I came across a blog or something that mentioned vaccinations leading to autism, etc. (again). Though I still haven’t done the extensive research in the ways you (and others have), I have extensively read stories and histories of families dealing with vaccine-injury. I now also ‘look’ for the information and combat the mainstream information regarding such things.

    Either way, as I said before, I’m so very glad that you (and others) write about the extensive research and help me to clarify our choice not to vaccinate, while also affirming and confirming my suspicions over the years regarding vaccination! So, thank you!

    Another proud and strong non-vaccinating mother! 😀


  9. I want to echo what you’ve already found. I did quite a bit of reading while pregnant with my son (our only) about medical interventions during delivery, which led me further into the medical field surrounding babies and thus vaccinations. The more I learn/read the more strongly I feel against vaccination. Our extended family questioned our non vaccinating stance always implying that we really needed to get on the ball with vaccinations. My son is 3 and has never needed a single antibiotic (I sadly contrast that with his 1 year younger fully vaccinated cousin who seems to be sick and on an antibiotic of some sort every other month since she was around 4 months old.) Over my dead body will someone vaccinate my child. I have this overwhelming feeling of vaccinations just being wrong whenever I think of them regarding my son. Thank you for being a voice against the mainstream crowd.


  10. Reading about those “if only” stories just breaks my heart. That is why I try to sound the alarm, including on my facebook page, where it is sometimes not appreciated…one girl told me today that being arrogant, having a soapbox, etc. would not win people over. Yet something IS. I have probably had 12-13 people at this count approach me with questions or in some way say they are now reconsidering.

    My question is, How long do you think we will have these freedoms? Not to start a political debate, but I understand that the healthcare bill includes provisions for required home visits and so on. I’m not worried about technical “required” vaccines–they always have BEEN required. I’m worried about the day when all exemptions are null and void and people are lined up against their will to receive their shots, go home fine or go home to become severely autistic or paralyzed or whatever, whatever the mood of the needle is at that moment.

    The tide is turning against vaccines, though, I think, thanks to you and many like you! I think the increasing aggressiveness in some blog posts about those of us who do not and why the “pro” side needs to be “louder” and “educate” us is from desperation.


  11. Hi!

    I thoroughly enjoy your blogs, thank you for all the research you’ve done on immunizations & writing your amazing blog! I also did a lot of research before deciding not to vaccinate my children. My oldest started public school this year, he is in Kindergarten. When I brought his paperwork to school to register him for school, they asked me for his updated immunization card. I presented the school representative with a simple letter stating that we(my husband & I) have chosen not to vaccinate our son based on personal beliefs. They accepted letter and never said anything. So, I thought everything was fine. Well, 9 weeks later I receive a letter from the school nurse asking me to sign the attached document. Obviously, I don’t agree with the statements they have at the top of this letter and don’t feel comfortable signing it. Have you ever had any issue(s) like this with sending your children to school? If so, what is your advice on how I should handle this? My son attends a “school of choice” in Lafayette Parish.

    Thanks Again!  



  12. I would LOVE to be in touch with you – non-vaccinating mama here. Yes, my INSTINCT is getting stronger and stronger on this subject. How can I connect with you?


  13. When my son was almost 4 years old and soon to be ready to receive his boosters, I started panicking. I didn’t understand why. Why was I worried? Yes, he was having a lot of trouble with his immune system, but still…why was I worried? I finally decided to listen to my instinct as a mother and started doing research and then went in prayer about it. I received my answer. I’m so thankful I listened. What would have happened if I hadn’t listened to that still small voice? I shudder to think what could have been.


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