Why Do I Care So Much?

When I first started this blog, we had 4 kids under the age of 4. I think I needed an outlet, or I was going to lose my mind. Blogging is much like journaling, except really really public. Haha! Around the time I started blogging, I was (still am) passionate about the topic of health: specifically vaccines (I had started researching vaccines before the birth of my first child 8 years ago) and felt like the whole world needed to know. I learned very quickly that the whole world did not want to know. But many people did. That was 3 years ago.

Today, I have 5 children. 4 biological & 1 adopted. Ages 3, 4, 5, 6, & 7.


My children are all healthy. I am very thankful for that. We haven’t been to a “well baby” visit or visited a pediatricians office in almost 5 years. None of my children have ever received a diagnosis for any sickness or disease. No ear infections or any other “common” childhood illnesses. Not a single round of antibiotics (except one child at age 6, took three doses of an antibiotic for strep throat. We threw the other 72 doses of the prescription away). I recently wrote about that here: “A Tale of Two Strep Throats”. No allergies or eczema or any other childhood illnesses that are considered “normal”. Our adoptive son came to us with a few issues, but they were the direct result of improper nutrition and care. He is now thriving.


Writing my blog has always just been a passion of mine. I write from my heart. Pretty quickly my blog grew. It started being shared on sites like Dr. Mercola, Gaia Health, & National Vaccine Information Center. I write a lot about health and have covered every topic from fevers and ear aches to preventing and fighting the flu to common childhood illnesses and my newly found love for YL oils. But mostly I tackle vaccines. I did a series on polio, wrote a few whooping cough pieces that went viral, shared quite a bit about measles, the truth about tetanus, how shingles are from hell, Hep B & Gardasil (crimes against humanity), compared vaccinated to unvaccinated and much much more (see vaccine tab on right side of blog)… One of my favorites is my dinner party piece. I also write about foodhealthsugar, children’s snacks. And all those things that make people call you a “crunchy mama”. healthy_living (1) I also write random personal posts like the 33 Random Things We Did This Summer or ALL the random things people say to me for having 5 kids. I’ve shared about my thoughts on everything from homebirths to homeschooling. But mostly I write about that awesome topic that isn’t the least bit controversial: vaccines. People either love this blog. Or they hate it. And they love to tell you why they hate it.

One of the most eye opening posts I’ve written in regards to children’s health, is titled “Is This The Best We Can Offer?” I wrote it two years ago and sadly, the statistics I shared have only gotten worse. I wrote that post directly from the book Vaccine Epidemic, Chapter 12: “Pediatrics: Sick Is The New Healthy”. Seriously? What are we doing?

When the vaccine topic gets “controversial”, my response is….I Only Want Things To Make Sense.

The autism community captured my heart and I started a series called “Lioness Arising” where I highlight parents of vaccine injured children. This is when my blog really fell into a groove and I found my niche. I adore this series. These mothers are my heart and soul and they are why I will NEVER stop writing about this topic. Please read about these amazing mommas and their precious children.

This blog earned the respects of The Thinking Moms Revolution (out of nothing but a mutual love and respect for one another) with a post titled Snooki vs. Jessica Gianelloni: American Heroines and with that article came many followers of families with vaccine injured children. I wrote a piece called “To Be Honored” where I shared in a nutshell what The Thinking Moms Revolution means to me. And what a full circle moment it was after a 7 1/2 year journey of vaccine research, to be honored. And then I spent 3 days with The Thinking Moms, where my passion was confirmed again and again. Read (HERE).


People ask me ALL the time: “WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH?” I’ve answered this before, in more depth (here), but this is my answer: I can’t imagine anything worse in the world, than to know, that I know, that I know, that I know, what happened to my child. And the whole world tries to deny it. Denial of what happened also keeps these children from being healed and recovered. Autism is preventable, treatable, & recoverable. This epidemic is a tragedy. I know that these parents (1 in 50) are tired and overwhelmed. I am not. So I will fight for them.

I wish everyone could see my fb newsfeed on a daily basis. Please click this to see what AUTISM LOOKS LIKE IN REAL LIFE. Our family blog received the honor of being listed as one of the resources for the Chalkboard Campaign with my post called “I Hope You’ve Done Your Research”.

Please watch the Chalkboard Campaign video and the Preventing Autism: What the Parents Say video

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I’ve never followed blogging rules. I’ve never taken a class on how to market my blog or “choose an audience”. I didn’t start writing with a specific audience in mind. I just wrote when I felt like writing and have always shared my heart and my passions. I write from my heart.

Then I went to Uganda for the first time 2 summers ago and fell in love with God’s children: the orphan. And I started blogging about the plight of orphans, and shared our entire adoption journey (all 23 updates). Including when we came HOME and this follow up heartfelt post (HERE). So then the mix of topics became even more diverse.

Health, Vaccines, Family, Adoption, & Orphans. Oh my…

529218_10151616470310883_2081431379_n tumblr_lvn969WZ251qgj43go1_400 Before I left for my 2nd trip to Uganda to bring our son home, I shut the blog down. I felt like I wanted “privacy”. I re-opened the blog shortly after returning from Uganda, and I really wondered WHY? So I wrote the original post: Why do I Write A Blog? Do I really want to keep writing? Part of me wanted to shut it down and be done with blogging.

I don’t know who my audience is. I’m not concerned really. But why do I share my life publicly with such a large audience over such a wide range of topics? I mean after all, I wrote an entire post about how our kids flushed our nativity scene down the toilet on Christmas Eve.

So I spent a lot of time contemplating, thinking, and praying about whether or not to continue writing this blog.


I know why I write. I write because I’m passionate about certain topics. And my desire is to educate, encourage, & inspire other mommas to think for themselves and make decisions for their family that feel right to them.  Sometimes I wonder…why share publicly? How do I mix vaccine world and health world and adoption world in a single blog? Or do I just continue being who I am and write about what I originally made this blog to be about: “Gianelloni Family: Life As We Know It”?

Not as anyone else knows it. Life As We Know it.

I write to give a voice to vaccine injured children and their parents. I write to shed light on issues that are not given a fair platform. I write because our media and the medical industry has failed us.

I never know which blogs are going to be “popular” or not. I just write from my heart. Some of my posts are called “emotional”. Good. I’m glad that when I post about a ridiculous CNN story on a measles “outbreak” that my post is emotional. I’m not writing a research paper. I’m writing a personal blog. My prayer and hope is that as I shed light on certain topics, that I encourage and educate along the way, and motivate you to do your own research.

Some days I write about how the CNN article on the measles “outbreak” has me mad (I call it righteous anger) or how Buffy the Vampire slayer is promoting the whooping cough vaccine (lame) and some days I write about adoption. Other days I just share personal stories about my family.

Please don’t ask me what my credentials are. My credentials are that I’m a THINKING MOM who followed her instinct.

“To the parents I would say, trust your instinct above all else. When considering how to vaccinate your children – read, get educated, and demand fully informed consent and answers to your questions. When you are stonewalled or these answers are not to your satisfaction, trust your instinct. I say this as someone who has studied and engaged in the science and who has become aware of the limitations of our knowledge and understanding of vaccine safety issues. Maternal instinct, in contrast, has been a steady hand upon the tiller of evolution; we would not be here without it” – Quote by hero Dr. Wakefield 

The Lord is definitely leading me through this blogging journey. I know when I need to lay low on a topic. And I know when I need to shout a certain topic from the roof tops. I will continue to write this blog, as long as I feel like the Lord is leading me through each post with peace and clarity. There is still a lot of truth to share and a lot of glory that God needs to be given…so I will continue to write. speak-the-truth I will always write about the things I am passionate about.

Here’s what this blog is NOT:

*Planned, organized, or marketed. I write when something is placed on my heart. I write sporadically. Sometimes twice a week, other times once a month. Who cares? I hate blog rules. This is not a strategic blog with a central theme that looks to grow it’s monthly viewers and gain approval from followers. I guest write for other blogs that do this. This is not that type of blog. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy you are here. But please don’t write to me telling me I need to write more often.

*My posts may not always give all the references and sources that one wishes. I’ve logged in over 5,000 hours of vaccine research. Please don’t read this blog as your form of research. Hopefully I’ve sparked an interest, or planted a seed, or initiated a question. Follow your instinct. Seek truth. In the end, whatever decision you’ve made, as I shared in this post: I Hope You’ve Done Your Research

*I receive comments that “this is just a blog”. Yep, yes it is. And while I encourage every mother to put in 5,000 hours of her own vaccine research, the truth is…most won’t. The great thing about social media is that people can take years of research and put it into easy to understand blogs, and share it. That’s what I’m doing. But by all means, if you want to verify what I say, you are more than welcome to spend an entire summer in the library (I did), digging up facts and statistics and CDC quotes that are just plain buried these days. I’ve read way too many boring published studies in medical literature. If I posted those studies on a blog, NO-ONE would read them. Doesn’t mean they don’t exist.

*Please don’t ask me for studies and when I give you a link to 70 published studies that show vaccines cause autism, then tell me I’m just sending you to “another blog”. Where do you want these 70 published studies to be located on the internet? On the CDC website? Ha!  NOT.

There are great books out there. I’ve probably read them all. Here’s are my current 3 favorites.

“Vaccine Epidemic: How Corporate Greed, Biased Science, and Coercive Government Threaten Our Human Rights, Our Health, & Our Children” Featuring more than twenty-five experts from the fields of ethics, law, science, medicine, business, and history, Vaccine Epidemic urgently calls for reform. It is the essential handbook for the vaccination choice movement and required reading for all people contemplating vaccination for themselves and their children.

Vaccine Illusion” Newly release by a Harvard PhD immunologist. I love her forward: “I never imagined myself in this position, least so in the very beginning of my Ph.D. research training in immunology. In fact, at that time, I was very enthusiastic about the concept of vaccination, just like any typical immunologist. However, after years of doing research in immunology, observing scientific activities of my superiors, and analyzing vaccine issues, I realized that vaccination is one of the most deceptive inventions the science could ever convince the world to accept”

“Thinking Mom’s Revolution: Autism Beyond The Spectrum” Inspiring True Stories from parents fighting to rescue their children. *Did I say FOLLOW YOUR INSTINCT? I hope so. I can’t say that enough. I’m about to launch a new Project and it has everything to do with Instinct.

*This is not a place for debates. If a comment is rude or degrading, it is thrown in the trash. I do not see many of the comments, as they are sent to me once they pass approval (thank goodness for a comment moderator). I try to respond to as many comments as I can, but I do not get to all of them. If you want your comment approved, be kind. If you do not agree with this blog, may I kindly suggest that you spend your time and energy elsewhere. I will never waste my time or energy engaging with insults, and honestly I don’t even see them. If you want to debate in a civil way, just for the sake of debating…I’m not into that either. However, I love comments that contribute to our community of THINKING moms and dads. I love hearing your stories and journeys. Please keep those comments coming!

*I make no money off of this blog. I have nothing to gain for writing from my heart and sharing truth.

*I have no audience. I probably never will. I cannot cater to only people looking for vaccine research. I cannot cater to sharing every single detail of our adoption journey.  I cannot pretend to be a “health related” blog. This blog is just our family’s life. Some of which I share. Most of which I don’t. And our life is pretty boring and not anywhere near perfect. I care a lot about health. A lot. But I am nowhere near perfect.  I just brought an orphan home from a 3rd world country. I am more elated with the convenience that I can heat up coconut oil in 5 seconds in my microwave to rub on his always & chronic ashy skin (anyone with a brown skinned child will understand this dilemma) than I am with the consequences of using a microwave.  I spent time in a country where, for 3 weeks, non-organic food was prepared for us using dirty water, and nasty cooking oil. And I couldn’t have cared less. I knew God’s grace and protection was covering us during our time in Uganda. I was thankful to be in a situation where I had to trust that God is bigger than my own desire to eat an organic, pure, and privileged diet (which is what our family eats). I experienced a major shift in my thinking. Don’t get me wrong. I’m still probably considered “a health nut” by the majority. So much so, that our new son thinks Kombucha is “soda” and I don’t mind lying to him about it 🙂

So here’s where I am. I will continue to write when I feel led to write. One day it may be about the joys of adoption, and another day it may be about vaccines. Or I might share pictures from one of the children’s b-day parties. Next week, our youngest turns three and she will most definitely get her own blog post 🙂 Boring, I know right? No, of course not. I do a blog post for each child on their b-day!


I know I don’t always get around to answering comments and questions. I’m a really, really bad blogger. But I love your comments and stories. And from the bottom of my heart, I thank-you.

I’m glad you are here.


This is Our Life….As We Know It!
With love, The Gianelloni 7


Lioness Arising Mom #7: Rainna Moran

I’d like to introduce Lioness Arising Mom #7. Her name is Rainna Moran and she is a local momma from New Orleans. Her passion for truth and action is inspiring because she is one of those mothers that will not only stop at nothing to heal her son, but she will also make a difference in the lives of many, many people. Already her voice is loud, as she tells it like it is. But sometimes that is the only way to get people to listen. And Rainna is just getting started.

This story is personal, yet truly represents the 1 in 50 with Autism. Written in an educated, yet easy to understand bullet points kinda way, this story truly grips at your heart.

Rainna and her precious son Chase, age 3 1/2

Told in her own words…

“Chase came into this world with determination to be free! His delivery was “fast and furious”. He was my third son and a huge surprise! My middle child, Wesley, had been born only 11 months earlier. So when “Fertile Myrtle” turned up pregnant again so soon, needless to say, it was a bit of a shock for a few weeks! He was a very healthy, 8lbs 10ounces. He was such a good baby, so sweet and had such an easy going personality. I was completely in love!!!


Chase hit all of his milestones. He rolled over on time, he sat up on time, he crawled on time. He had great eye contact and he laughed at his daddy’s funny faces. His brothers were able to engage him in play. He never had ear infections. He never had any digestive system issues. In that first year, I’m not sure that he was ever sick! Healthy! Healthy! Healthy! So, what went wrong?!?!? Where did I fail to protect him from this dreadful enemy that I was blissfully unaware of?

These are the accumulation of insults that I believe played a part
in Chase regressing into his Autism:

1. (And this is a big one) I got the freakin’ Flu shot! Why oh why did I decide to get it while pregnant?!?!??!! I never get it! It was H1N1 season. There was pressure at work and on the news; “This is going to be the worst flu season yet” and the most vulnerable (infants, elderly, and pregnant) should be the first to get it! I did not one bit of research on this! Dumb! Dumb! Dumb!

2. I’m a nurse in a NICU. While starting an IV on a very sick baby, I stuck myself with a dirty needle! Ugh! The one and only time that I’ve ever done that and it had to be while I was pregnant! It turned out that the baby was positive for CMV (cytomegalovirus). Great!!!

3. I had a shit ton of ultrasounds! I was so nervous about him being a large baby because my oldest was 10 lbs 5 ounces. Being a neonatal nurse I’ve seen the damage from babies being too large.

4. This is probably the single most important one!!!! I got all of his vaccinations just like the doctor suggested. Like any “good” mom would, right?!? No, a big fat WRONG!!! Turns out that the safety of giving multiple vaccines at once has NEVER EVER been tested!!! Why in the world didn’t I know this before? So at his I year old well baby visit I held him down to be injected with the MMR (1st dose), Varicella (1st dose), Hep A (1st dose), and here’s the kicker…. He also received his 3rd dose of the flu shot!!! (4th if you count the one that I got during pregnancy)

All I can think now is mercury, mercury, mercury!! 25 mcg a pop in those flu shots.

When a baby receives 3 new vaccines for the first time, all at once (MMR, Varicella, Hep A), if there were to be a reaction, how would you know which one caused it? I should not have allowed this, and it seems like common sense when I look back at it. (I wish I would have known then, what I know now!) I was so freaking naive!

“They” wouldn’t let parents allow their babies to be injected with deadly toxins, right?!?! WRONG!!! Who is “they” anyway?

5. Not only was he given all of those vaccines at the same time, but a week and a half later he required heavy duty antibiotics to prevent an infection close to his eye brow from spreading. My poor baby boy, how overloaded he was with drugs during this time.

*This was enough to send him spiraling into Autism! Literally! After this, He started spinning things obsessively, his eye contact faded, he didn’t laugh at his daddy anymore, he walked on his tip toes, didn’t have any words, and he stopped responding to his name.

6.  At his 18 month visit, for the first time, he didn’t meet all of his milestones. I expressed concern about his hearing, so a screening was suggested. And then, I freaking did it again!!! I allowed more vaccines! Ugh! It makes me cringe just thinking about it!

After this visit, and I mean the very next day, is when my mom said the word Autism for the first time. It hit me HARD! I mean like a ton of bricks! I knew immediately that she was right! I didn’t even know what Autism was, but I knew in my heart, in that very second, that it was Autism. My days of being blissfully unaware were over!!! Just like that!!! I put on my big girl drawls and got busy setting up evaluations and appointments on my own! Our Ped didn’t have much to say about our concerns of Autism. He did NOT refer me to anything but speech therapy! So I referred my baby to anything and everything that I could think of that would help him! And anyone that would help me to Chase Answers!!!

Chase started ST, OT, and special instruction through the La. Early Steps program. I did a little research and started him on the GFCF diet. He saw a Pediatric Neurologist, a Geneticist, a Developmental Pediatrician, an Optometrist, a nutritionist, a dietician, and an ENT. An ABR (hearing test) and an MRI were done under heavy sedation (which should be listed as #7) because I feel as though his sedation was yet another rotten choice! But, His Autism diagnosis did come after hearing problems were ruled out. Again, Nobody holding my hand and guiding me through this process!!!

7. Still, unaware of the Autism/vaccine link, I brought him in for his Two-year-old well baby visit. And guess what we did there?!?!? You got it! Another inoculation.

This was where the insult on upon injury would end!!!

After that, I read! I got counseling and got on antidepressants. And I read. Read and read and read!!! Anything I could get my hands on related to autism and treatment. (No offense to the therapists, but therapy alone wasn’t going to work for ChaseyBoo ). I went to every conference I could. I made autism mom contacts online and I reached out to them for advice.

Their are some GREAT warrior moms out there!!!! Biomedical treatments were my obsession! Vitamins and supplements, mito cocktails, detoxification, yeast, GFCF diet, SCD, GAPS, DAN Drs., MAPS Drs., HBOT, Simpsonwood, stool samples, Wakefield, etc. I started off “Autism school” as a remedial Kindergartener at best! Now I realize that I have really learned a lot in the past year and a half! I’d say maybe I’m at HS Senior level! One day I’ll have a freaking Master’s in Autism! And I can picture us both (ChaseyBoo and I) walking across that stage together, both in cap and gown receiving our diplomas with honors!!!


Where are we today? I’ve totally lost my mind!!! Having a child with Autism will do that to you! Not because he is so miserable and difficult, but because I know what happened to him was completely preventable! I have to share this with my friends and family who are not always receptive unfortunately, but if one of their kids regressed into Autism then it would be on me!!

I can’t shut up about all that I have learned! That tends to happen when you’re faced with Autism! I refuse to take my little Autistic child and go sit in a corner quietly!!! Nope! That’s not going to happen! I’m talking about it, as uncomfortable and controversial a subject as it is!! I’m getting our story out there! I’m telling everyone that I know and everyone that I meet! (Well, the ones that’ll listen anyway).

You’re going to see Chase and you’re going to listen to him!! He may be non-verbal but he has sooooo much to say to the world, and you’d better believe “momma bear” is here to help him! Don’t ignore him world!!

I hate to say it, but the ones who won’t listen now will be listening when the Autism rates are 1:10 and their loved one has been affected! Sorry to be frightening, but no one is safe! Toxins are in everything! Our food supply is mostly contaminated in this country! Vaccine safety NEEDS to be studied! So much greed in the world it makes me sick and sad!

Even if the safety of our food and vaccines looks grim, it doesn’t mean that I (or you) have to just live with it and accept that this is the way its gonna be! For future generation’s sake, we need to care and we need to investigate, and we need to take action! My children deserve it. Our children deserve it.


I’m not perfect and I don’t know everything, but I do believe with all of my heart that my baby was vaccine injured resulting in his development of ASD. And no, I’m not just saying that because I want to sue! First of all, I would never have the time, money, energy, or patience to play that game with our government! The truth is that most of us Autism parents are too busy caring for our sick kids to dedicate the time needed for that kind of endeavor!! And “they” would make it damn near impossible, anyway! In the CDC’s own words, you can read here how vaccines are UNAVOIDABLY UNSAFE. The government is protected. Why would I waste my time trying to sue?  “Ain’t nobody got time for that!”

What I do have time for is advocacy! My mom and I are in the works to start a local parent support group. Well, maybe more like a club/fundraising/awareness and action-raising/fun bunch of nuts from NOLA kind of group!!! We want people to “Chase Answers” with us! This month, with the momentum from Autism One, I’m thrilled to say that we are finally getting started and we have our first event in the works!!!

With the drowning death of a local Autistic boy (the 5th in a 2 week period in the US) I wanted to raise awareness about these kinds of devastating tragedies that sadly account for a very high percentage of our kids’ deaths! More importantly, I want to raise the money to buy radio frequency or GPS tracking bracelets with monitors for these parents who are constantly fearful of this very thing happening to their precious angels.

Just recently, I had the single most traumatic thing in my life happen! Chase’s life flashed before my eyes! He had a very close call on a very busy street! All I heard was a car horn and in an instant he could have been taken from us. I cried the most out of control, hysterical, panicked cry for hours after that (in fact for days and still I have a very hard time speaking about it aloud). Because of Autism, Chase was unaware of the street and the car. That is what Autism does. It steals children.

I can’t imagine life without my sweet boy! God was with my baby boy that day! His “momma bear” angels were watching out too! I know that he will do great things in his life, and maybe he was spared from that car hitting him because he can inspire others to take a good look at this problem we call “Autism”. That’s the way I see it! When there’s a will, there’s a way! And I WILL be with him every step of the WAY, following the path that God is laying out for us!”

If you live in the New Orleans area and are interested in joining efforts with Chase Answers, please contact Rainna at Chaseanswers@gmail.com


To learn more about the Lioness Arising Series and read about the other mothers changing the world, click (HERE)

To Be Honored…

It’s interesting how we go through seasons. Consider this sorta like a year-in-review type post, as I share how the tide has turned and I feel like I’ve just taken in a great big breath of fresh air.


7 years ago I entered a season of uncertainty. Speaking out against a topic that was taboo, controversial, unpopular, and not accepted. The “V” word.

I lost friendships and spent many days contemplating if should just throw in the towel. I had so many justifications for giving up on what I clearly felt like the Lord had called me to speak out against. There were days when I figured I was just plain crazy: who in their right mind would want to be a vaccine safety advocate and speak out against the dangers of vaccines?

Not worth it. Too dangerous. Not popular. The reasons went on and on…

But I didn’t give up. I couldn’t. Everywhere I went (and still go), I am introduced to vaccine injured children. Sick kids. Everywhere. The new normal.


For those of you that follow this blog, you know I write about this topic a lot. In my post Is This The Best We Can Offer, I write about Chapter 11 in the book Vaccine Epidemic: “Pediatrics, Sick is the New Healthy”.

I’ve shared on more than one occasion how I’ve fallen in love with the autism community and how the Autism mommas have capture my heart: I Only Want Things to Make Sense.

I’ve challenged my readers with a post called: “I Hope You’ve Done Your Research” and I’ve asked for logical explanations on issues like introducing the whooping cough vaccine to newborns in a post called: The Whooping Cough has Me at a Loss for Words. I’ve exposed myths, the most common being: The Myth of Herd Immunity.

I started a series called “Lioness Arising Mothers”, where I tell the personal stories of mothers and the devastating journey they are on with their precious children.

In June I wrote a post called: Food & Water: Nope. Vaccines: Yep. It struck a nerve. It was featured on Dr. Mercola, Gaia Health, National Vaccine Information, and more. Suddenly, Bill Gates and his billion dollar anti-vaccine surveillance alert system group found my blog. I think that day I received about 300 comments from his paid peeps. Good I thought, I got their attention. Funny how truth has a way of doing that.

Through the years, I’ve watched how the tide is turning. In the beginning I received mostly resistance. Now, I receive more and more messages of acceptance. Either parents are “getting it” or parents are at their wits end and desperate and ready for help. Why the change? Because more and more children are becoming sick. And those same children have parents. And those parents know EXACTLY what happened to their children. And they won’t shut up until the truth is told. Enter The Thinking Moms Revolution.


A few weeks ago I was honored by The Thinking Moms Revolution, in a creative piece titled “Snooki vs. Jessica Gianelloni: American Heroines” You can read the full post HERE. I’ll share just a bit of it:

“Jessica has been writing about TMR and our friends for quite some time. What makes Jessica unique is that she does not have affected children. Her mission is simply to take the knowledge she has been given and share it with the world. Please read her latest post about “A Different Type of Orphan.” 

While she has been called to advocate for orphans, as is the case with everything Jessica does, she takes it a step further, goes the extra mile, and puts the finishing touches on research and information that others would have glazed over. She gets it. She gives us her time, her knowledge and that which we are most grateful for… her unending stores of energy and her unshakable sense of peace. 

Yes, Thinking Moms are indeed a burgeoning institution/movement/powerhouse… but we are in no position to offer her 32k for all that she gives us… for free. 

Our gratitude is all we’ve got. From the very bottom of our hearts, thank you, Jessica Gianelloni.

So, I leave you with this. We live in a country where someone like Jessica has to remove the names of her children from her blog because of the threatening hate mail she receives for telling the truth about vaccines and unclean food. Snooki, a Reality TV Star with no discernible life skills speaks at one of our country’s finest higher learning institutions for 45 minutes and receives 32k. 

What are you going to do about it?”

Wow. I was blown away. Was I really being honored by the very people that deserve the honor?

The day this article was published, I shared my heart in a fb post: “7 years ago, as I began this journey of vaccine awareness, I lost many friendships, as those close to me suddenly did not understand who I had become. It was a disappointing time in my life. 7 years later, and today I am being honored by The Thinking Moms Revolution. I can’t think of a bigger honor to be bestowed upon me in this area of my life. I feel like this is God’s way of confirming this is the journey He has me on. I am in the lane I’m meant to be in. And I will continue to run this race and fight this fight! I am humbled & honored beyond words. Thank-you Thinking Moms!”

Why am I sharing all of this? Because the honor isn’t really on me. The honor is on truth. Truth can only go as far as the people willing to share it. And that’s what I love about The Thinking Moms Revolution. They give me an outlet to spread and tell truth.

The Thinking Moms are reaching far and wide. Yesterday I received this message from a good friend who is a nurse. She told of a conversation she had with another nurse during their shift in the hospital. Her message read:

“So God is awesome…clearly we know that. Here is some more proof though.

Last night I worked with a nurse that I don’t normally work with. Somehow we got on the topic of her 14month old little boy who has constantly been sick since he was born. High fevers, ear infections, respiratory problems, etc. In the middle of her story telling, she says “I can’t believe I’m telling you all this. I never talk about how sick my little boy is…”

I don’t talk very much about vaccines at work because I don’t feel that I’m well educated enough (yet) to speak against them. (Especially in a vaccine happy environment.) This time I felt that I had to bring them up. So i said, “I can’t believe I’m bringing this up either because it is so taboo around here but…has your son had all of his vaccinations?” She proudly said “oh yes, absolutely!”… So then I asked if she thought that perhaps his sickness could have started after receiving the vaccines. She said that she had thought that, and asked the doctor, to which he replied “Oh, of course not.” (Of course). Even though last night she realized, he has had all his exacerbations right after shots.

This poor momma is at her wits end after months of antibiotics, sleepless nights, breathing treatments, blood work, testing for autoimmune diseases…and NO definitive diagnoses.

I told her about you, your blog, (Solomon, too. i just HAD to tell her about God’s handiwork in that part of your life) and The Thinking Moms Revolution website. We pulled it up last night (at our nurses station at work) and she found a case that sounds EXACTLY like her little boy. With a court case story to go with it. She just kept saying “I never either thought to educate myself about something like this”.

I told her I was the exact same way until not so long ago. She is a believer who has spent hours after hours in prayer for her little boy. The same little boy who’s daddy called this morning at work and told her he has a 102.2 fever only 2 weeks after being off antibiotics.

She said she couldn’t wait to get home to read more about The Thinking moms and you! The light bulb definitely went off.

Last night wasn’t my normal night to work. She only works 2-3 shifts a month on ANOTHER floor. God arranged that meeting and gave us both the confidence to talk about things we usually keep quiet.

The impact of your research, your lifestyle, your stories, and your voice, your faithfulness to God’s calling, and THE truth are reaching far beyond the people you have met. I just wanted you to know. :)”


The end of 2012 comes during a season of restoration. God is a redeemer of all situations.  For me personally, the Lord is redeeming a season in my life when I was once misunderstood and rejected, to entering a season of being honored and thanked.

Truth is truth is truth is truth. And it will always win.

Here’s to truth. Here’s to The Thinking Mom’s Revolution.

Are you a Thinking Mom? I sure hope so.

The world is waiting for you….

I Only Want Things To Make Sense…

It’s been 7 long years since I started this journey of researching vaccines. This journey has taken me through many different stages. I went through a stage where I was a human sponge. I couldn’t stop researching and learning. I soaked it up and loved staying drenched. Then I went through a stage when I wanted to shout everything I learned from the rooftops. I started writing a book. I started writing a blog. This was also the stage when I lost friends. It wasn’t exactly the funnest stage, but it was a necessary part of my journey. During this time, I met a lot autism mommas, and I became part of a very real, very alive, passionate community of vaccine safety advocates.

I knew my vaccine research as a mom had been fulfilled through the decisions I made for my children, so why wasn’t I done? Why or how did I become a spokesperson? Why was I, as some of my old friends described me, “obsessed” with this topic? There were days when I wondered this myself.  But the Lord continued to confirm his plan for this journey, and there became a moment when this journey and my passion became crystal clear. It was my autism mommas. They captured my heart. They were the reason I fought for truth. They were the reason behind my relentless desire to research and educate others.

The more I got to know these mommas, the more I loved with them.
These are mommas just like me & you. 

In their own words: ”I didn’t ask for this fight. None of us did. We followed the rules. Did what we were told. Didn’t question authority. Trusted the “experts”. Showed up on time. Held them down. Over and over and over. Gave the antibiotics. Ignored our guts. Loaded them up on Tylenol. And chalked it all up to coincidence. We didn’t do anything to deserve this. Most certainly our children didn’t either. But I’ll be damned…I’ll be DAMNED…if I allow my daughter’s life and those of her generation like her…to be discounted, chalked up to the “greater good”, and poisoned at the hand of those she trusted without someone, someday being held responsible for what they did. I can forgive. I cannot, and will not, ever forget. And I cannot and will not ever give up.”  

So I keep fighting for truth. Their children’s lives matter. ALL children’s lives matter.

“A false polarity is perpetuated that positions deaths and injuries from disease as somehow more tragic than deaths and injuries from vaccines. These are equal tragedies. No child deserves to be written off as collateral damage in the war on disease.”

Where I’m at today feels like a lifetime away from where I was 7 years ago. I feel like I’ve been called to a new stage in this journey. I refuse to let my passion and my autism mommas be considered “controversial”. I’m not looking for debates or conflict. There was a stage during this vaccine journey, where I was very much involved in heated debates and uncomfortable conversations. That is not necessarily the role I wish to take anymore.

What I do wish for is Answers. Justice. Common sense. Logic. And Truth.

I recently read an article titled: Whooping Cough Vaccine Failures Increasing.
As someone who has been researching whooping cough for 7 years and has written articles and an entire chapter on this disease, the article caught my attention.

Two main points of the article:

Point #1: “Vaccinations nearly wiped out whooping cough more than 30 years ago, so the surge in cases in California and around the country has caught health officials off guard”

Really? They are surprised? 30 years ago people received ONE vaccine for pertussis. Today people receive 7 boosters. Why then are we having a surge in cases? And why can’t anyone figure it out? I know the reason why. The CDC has admitted it.

CDC: “The resurgence of WHOOPING COUGH is due to the vaccine causing an increased and more virulent toxin. The CDC acknowledges that whooping cough is recurring in highly vaccinated populations. They also concluded that there is a high secondary transmission rate from vaccinated individuals”

CDC : “Vaccinated adolescents and adults may serve as reservoirs for silent infection and become potential transmitters to unprotected infants. Therefore, even young, recently vaccinated children may serve as reservoirs and potential transmitters of infection.”

The Every Birth Article explains (in a simple & easy to understand explanation) the science behind why this surge is happening. And it’s not what we are told. But it’s the truth. Why does the truth have to be so controversial?


Point #2: “We know there are places around the country where there are large numbers of people who aren’t vaccinated,” said Dr. Anne Schuchat, the director for the National Center for Immunization and Respiratory Diseases at the CDC, “However, we don’t think those exemptors are driving this current wave.”

What then is driving this current wave? The media, school officials, and pediatricians are doing an excellent job making us believe that “vaccine exemptions have caused the worst pertussis outbreak in 70 years”, but even the spokespeople for the CDC know that’s not true.

An investigation by California doctors has revealed that California’s 2010 whooping cough centered around children who had already received the whooping cough vaccine. The study was led by infectious disease specialist Dr. David Witt, and was initiated after an unusually large number of whooping cough cases were admitted to Kaiser Permanente Hospital in San Rafael, California in 2010. The doctors discovered that 81 percent of patients had received the full series of whooping cough shots, and 11 percent had received only some of the shots. The remaining 8 percent had not received any immunizations for whooping cough.

I just want things to make sense. Why don’t vaccines work? Why can’t we admit that whooping cough is a disease of the vaccinated? Why is the vaccine schedule increasing year after year? Why are more & more boosters added? Why are we the most highly vaccinated culture in the history of medicine, yet our children are sicker and dumber than every before? Why are children being taken out of their moms arms, against their will, to be vaccinated during pediatrician visits? Why is there an entire generation of parents begging us to listen to the stories about their children? Why are there 1 in 50 children with autism? Why are 1 in 6 children learning disabled or suffering from asthma, allergies, etc… Why so many autoimmune disorders?

In an excellent post called “They Say”, written by my talented friend and one of the co-founders of The Thinking Moms Revolution, the article left me asking “Why?” Why do “They” tell us all these things that aren’t true?

I don’t want to be controversial. Some days I forget that this journey still is. My inbox is filled with messages asking for help on a daily basis. I can hardly keep up anymore. It’s filled with mothers asking for answers. The stories are heartwrenching. None of it makes sense. Unless of course you take a step back and are willing to question the norm.

Age of Autism recently posted an article called “We Can’t Unfriend Our Lives”. I know what it means to get de-friended. I’ve been there. I’m in a season now however, where for every de-friend I’ve received in the past, I have a dozen new friend requests from mommas who need help. In the article, one of the autism mommas that captured my heart and has become my dear friend, writes: “I am so flipping tired. I miss sleeping. But most of all, I miss the comforting notion that everything is okay. Because it’s not. I get why my weak friend has to de-friend. It’s not at all okay and my presence in her life is a constant reminder of that. I am a part of the 1% of moms who know what happened to their kids and will not shut up about it. The 1% that is spreading the word to the other 99%. Can you please help us bump that number up to 2%? Be one of the parents who get involved. Figure it out and pay it forward. Because most of us have been up since 1 am and we are tired”

So this is why I do what I do. Not to be controversial. Not because I’m obsessed. Not because I like conflict and debates. But because I want to make things right. And I want things to make sense. I want to know why we are told to give our children a product to “protect” them, but that product doesn’t work? And then, when the same children we were told to “protect” are harmed by that product, no-one listens. I want these mommas voices to be heard. They are tired.
And I’m not.

I came to a cross-roads a few years ago, when I felt like this journey was over. I remember thinking “I’m done”. I tried to quit. The Lord kept giving me Proverbs 31:8-9 “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves. Ensure justice on those being crushed”. There was a period over a couple of weeks when I think a different person randomly sent me this verse about a dozen times. I quickly got the hint. During this same time, I couldn’t go anywhere without meeting a mother and her vaccine injured child. And then I realized, how can I quit these moms? They can’t quit their lives. They represent the 1%, but when they get tired and weary, I’m proud to say that I’m the 2% that will step in and fight for them. That’s why I started the series called Lioness Arising Mothers. Their stories need to be told.

I’m done fighting against people who don’t want to listen. But I will never be done fighting for the people who desperately need others to listen.

Will you listen? 

Eat the Cupcake or Go Home…

Eat The Cupcake or Go Home…

OK, that’s not exactly how it happened.

But my sweet little girl no longer attends her private Christian pre-school.
Pretty much the way we eat was “too much of a problem”.

This blog is not necessarily about our situation or about the school. I have no desire to bad mouth my children’s school and know this was an isolated incident. What this blog post is really about is the bigger picture.

I get it. I really do. Our lifestyle is misunderstood. We don’t fit in with the “norm”.
We make decisions that go against belief systems that are so engrained in our mainstream society.

The thing is, I don’t care to fit in anymore. And I know I don’t have control over whether people understand me or not. But I do have a desire to teach and educate and empower others.

And I will never stop doing that.

Writing about these passions of mine regarding health (food, vaccines, medicine) are what God has called me to do. I’ll be honest, I haven’t always embraced this call on my life. In fact, I’ve struggled with it. I’ve asked the Lord plenty of times: Why me? I don’t want to be a vaccine spokesperson. I just want to stay in my own little comfort zone where I know that the decisions I make for my family work for us. I know my children are protected and safe and healthy. I have total and complete peace over my decisions. Now, can I just sit back and do my own life and not care what anyone else does?

Nope. That’s not how it works. God’s plans are always bigger and better.
That doesn’t mean easier, just better.

My passions and these topics are constantly offending people. Whether it’s through a fb post where I share the current statistics of this generation of sick kids, and suddenly everyone who reads the statistics thinks I’m personally attacking their child.  Or if I post an article about the ineffectiveness of a vaccine, somehow I’m offending the mom who just gave her child that vaccine. Interesting how someone can share an article about a Johnson & Johnson baby shampoo recall, and suddenly every mother that has ever used that shampoo is so thankful to know the truth.  Vaccines don’t work that way.  I can’t really think of a more controversial topic.

Yay for me, that’s the topic I speak about on a daily basis.

And then there’s the topic of food. Even my kids are now offending people. At a recent class party, when my child was asked if she wanted a cupcake, she responded “No thank-you, that is not healthy”. Apparently that offended the teacher and I am raising my children “to be judgmental”.

Since when did healthy food choices become offensive?

I understand that people don’t want to hear that the skittles they just ate are carcinogenic and filled with petroleum. Suddenly they are offended because they like skittles. And how dare you talk about the ingredients in foods that people like to eat.

How dare you make a teacher feel like the food she feeds the students at a class party is not good enough for your child. That is extremely offensive.  Especially if they already think you are nuts because of your view on vaccines or the fact that you don’t give fever reducers.  At that point, pretty much any decision you make is going to be met with opposition and resistance and criticism.

According to this teacher, my children suffer when they have fevers. How do I know this? She wrote about it on fb. Who cares that I spent 2 years in ER rooms wondering why my baby had such high fevers when she had a slight illness (104-105 degrees) and no-one could give me any answers. So I started researching and learned that the fever reducers I was giving her were doing more harm than good. That they were depleting her glutathione and making it impossible for her to heal and recover from a common cold. I learned that fevers are not to fear. I learned that when I let a fever takes its course, my child recovered much quicker. I’ve shared that research here: Fevers Are Not to Fear & And then there were TUBES. Every decision I make for MY children comes from an abundance of diligent research.

Who cares that it’s an educated decision to not feed your child sugar and artificial colors. It would almost be easier to have a kid who was allergic to red dye or peanuts, that way it wouldn’t be an offensive “choice”.

Food allergies are accommodated for. Food choices are offensive.

For the past week, I have sat through meetings and had more conversations concerning  what took place at my child’s school than I care for. I’ve sat with the teachers, the Director, the Pre-School Minister. And while the story is long and painful and upsetting and hurtful, it’s also quite simple. We are misunderstood. Our choices for our children are not seen as EDUCATED choices. Our decisions are second-guessed, criticized, and misunderstood.

This lifestyle is so misunderstood that during one of the meetings this past week, I was asked if “our practices also don’t believe in bathing?” Really? I’m not quite sure what “our practices” are, but the last time I checked the same parents that want healthy kids, also want clean kids. Who wants dirty healthy kids? That doesn’t even make sense.

See the misconception is this: A non-vaccinating parent that feeds their children proper life-giving nutrition and treats sickness naturally, well the kids of those parents, they are being neglected by their uneducated and misinformed parents. You know, those neglected kids that have the occasional runny nose, and heaven forbid their parents don’t do anything about it. Who cares that a clear runny nose is a sign that the body is eliminating something it doesn’t want in the body. You know part of God’s great plan for us to detox. No, dope the kids up on meds. Mask those symptoms. We don’t care about healing or treating the symptoms. We just don’t want to see the runny nose.

I didn’t pick up Vogue Magazine one day and read an article about how cool it is to not vaccinate and suddenly decide… “Hey, I don’t think I’m going to vaccinate my kids. I sure hope this is the right decision.”

What these teachers don’t understand is that parents who choose not to vaccinate are the most educated and informed parents I have ever met. We aren’t just a bunch of crazy anti-vaccine conspiracy theory activists who don’t bathe their children. Haha!

Seriously though, I have done more research on this topic than I ever imagined was possible. Just when I think I’ve caught up on current research, 20 new published studies pop up in medical literature, and suddenly I’m neck deep in research again.  I Hope You’ve Done Your Research. Not to mention the fact that I am literally surrounded by friends with vaccine injured children. Everyday my fb newsfeed is filled with stories from my autism mommas and parents of children who are chronically ill from vaccines (asthma, allergies, adhd, intestinal issues, autoimmune disorders, autism, etc..). As long as the vaccine schedule keeps increasing and our food chain becomes more toxic, these stories will NEVER go away.

That’s why I started the Lioness Arising Series. The stories of the these children and their mommas must be told.

Every week I receive dozens of messages from parents asking me questions, desperate for help, thanking me, etc… Sometimes my inbox is so overwhelming I can’t keep up. I know I’m walking in God’s will though, because He continues to give me the strength and grace to walk this journey. It’s not always easy. I’m often tired and feel defeated. Especially when I have to defend my decisions to my children’s school.

I didn’t see a picture of a celebrity eating an organic salad one day and think “Oh that looks cool and trendy, I want to eat organic”. The decision to feed our children the way we do comes from years and years of research, starting with my revolutionary parents who started the first Health Food restaurant in Louisiana 35 years ago. My sister Harm could practically write a book based on her research of food. My husband Rit reads every book there is from “Foods that Fight Cancer” to “The Green Pharmacy Herbal Handbook”.

Ever read “Nourishing Traditions?” Why would we continue to let our kids eat junk when we know too much about what it can do to their bodies? Why would I compromise my research  just because my kids’ class is having a party? We were once told “You can’t really make a religion out of how you eat”.  Funny, I see it differently.  I call it being a good steward over the life and body God gave you.

I watch chronically sick children get healed through proper diet & nutrition. Those parents have to make a religion out of how they feed their kids, otherwise their kids won’t heal. If we can heal sick kids through proper food & diet & nutrition, then why not feed  healthy kids this way and avoid all the pain and suffering and sickness and illness?

I wish these teachers would have chosen to focus on the results of our families lifestyle, rather than the fact that the process might not look “normal”. Like the fact that in the two consecutive years these same teacher had our kids, my children never missed a single day of school due to being sick. That my children have never been on a single prescription medication, including antibiotics. When every other kid is getting their “rites of passage” ear infection that is somehow considered “normal”, none of my children have ever had a single ear infection.

I could maybe understand if my kids were always sick, always at the doctor, always on antibiotics or getting prescriptions filled. Then there might be reason for concern. But there was no basis for concern. The concern was that I don’t fit into the box they want me to fit into. They wanted my kid to eat the cupcake, just like every other kid. Who cares that children are smart and once they realize that certain foods actually make them feel worse, they have no desire to eat that food again. No instead, it’s “Hey kid…eat your cupcake and be quiet”.

So here’s to all you other crazy parents who choose to practice health differently…

Eat your Cupcake or Go Home!