Lioness Arising Mom #4: Rebecca Ferguson

I am so excited to introduce my next Lioness Arising Mother

About a year ago, I found a website called “Regarding Caroline”. I will never forget it.  We were driving on a long road trip and I had a lot of time to sit and read through the website. Then I got to the recovery video. Caroline’s beautiful recovery video. I sat there crying, my husband asking what was wrong, and I remember telling him: “I love these stories of recovery. These moms are so amazing to me. If I had the opportunity to meet a celebrity or a mom like Caroline’s mom, I would choose these mommas every time”.

A year later, our paths crossed and I am proud to say that today, Caroline’s mom, Rebecca Ferguson is my friend.  This momma is incredible. Her dedication to recover and heal her daughter is remarkable and wonderful and beautiful.

rebecca and caroline disney

Rebecca Ferguson, who had previously conquered the corporate world and traveled the ends of the earth seeking meaning in her life, finally found it right at home: recovering a child from autism.  Rebecca authors the website Regarding Caroline. When she isn’t blogging or researching, she’s helping other parents in the community heal their children. The message that there’s always hope is a pervasive theme in her articles.

Caroline’s (brief) story: (told through her mothers words)

“Caroline was born a happy, healthy, playful baby…until 6 months of age when she received the DTaP, IPV/OPV, Hep B, PCV7, and a Flu shot all at her 6 month well child visit. After that, she began exhibiting a shaking behavior any time her excitement or sensations became more than she could process. Other than that, she was still fairly typical. She began to babble and was developing a few words… Ma-ma, Da-dad, the words that touch a parent’s hart. However, after 12 months of age (and the MMR), she lost them and did not gain any others.

After months of Speech Therapy and Occupational Therapy (with little progress), Caroline was becoming completely intolerant of transitions, defensive of many textures (including most foods) and her social anxiety was debilitating. We knew we needed to look beyond therapy”.

Caroline’s journey since then has been nothing short of mind-blowing diagnoses, treatments, & therapies. All which eventually led to healing and recovery. At 33 months, Caroline’s Biomedical journey began.

If you are not familiar with Biomedical treatments, I highly recommend educating yourself. The Regarding Caroline website details the Biomedical journey in one of the most thorough and extensive ways I’ve seen. It is simply remarkable. If you are unaware of the following terms, tests, & treatments, this should be a mandatory learning list for parents.

Vaccine injury is very real. So is recovery and healing.

DMG (Dimethylglycine), GFCF Diet, Digestive Enzymes (DPP-IV), Methyl b-12 injections, Cod Liver Oil, Specific Carbohydrate Diet (SCD/GAPS), Antifungals, Antivirals, Low Dose Naltrexone (LDN) cream, mild Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy (mHBOT), Urine Porphyrins Test, Low dose chelation with Transdermal DMPS, Alpha Lipoic Acid (ALA), Homeopathy, Belladona, Adrenal Cortext Extract, Phosphatidyl Serine, Camels Milk.

I list all these things, simply because there is an entire other world out there, that doesn’t involve drugs, medications, & prescriptions. It saddens me when I see a child diagnosed with an illness and the parents are told their only option is to mask the symptoms with drugs, in hopes of alleviating some of the suffering…with never any hope of actually healing the child.

Rebecca learned, during Caroline’s autism diagnosis, that Caroline’s body could not overcome the viruses from the vaccines, as her body was still fighting them. They were causing inflammation in her brain and gut, which was wreaking havoc and leading to many of her issues.  Through many tests, Rebecca learned that the elevated levels of mercury and several other metals were also the cause of many issues. And then the PANDAS diagnosis:

“What we know about Caroline’s immune system was confirmed again. Because of her autoimmune problems, the vaccines she received at 6 months of age, caused her body to make inappropriate antibodies, which attacked her brain, likely causing inflammation and injuring the basal ganglia nuclei in the center of her brain.

The basal ganglia contain neurons that receive and modify information from the cerebral cortex. They’re associated with a variety of functions, including voluntary motor control, procedural learning, behaviors, and cognitive and emotional functions.

When her basal ganglia were injured after the 6 month vaccines, she developed a movement disorder (she shakes uncontrollably anytime her sensory system is overstimulated). Then, when she received her 12 month vaccines (after the pediatrician assured us there could be no relations), her brain was again injured, resulting in her losing all her language and developing significant behavioral, emotional, and sensory issues.

Caroline was suffering from inflammation of the brain. Caroline’s case is NOT rare, not even uncommon. Vaccine induced encephalopathy (brain swelling) is the unpublicized cause of many childhood neurological disorders (Autism, ADHD, Behavioral problems, Brain tumors, Metabolic disorders, Learning disorders, Mitochondrial disorders, etc..)”

Caroline was suffering from:
Medical Issues (in brain and gut), Leaky & Inflamed Gut, Autism, Sensory and Language Issues, Sensory Processing Disorder, Verbal Apraxia, Hyperlexia, OCD behaviors, Social Anxiety, Tantrums during transitions, Lack of focus, Teeth Grinding, Night waking (5 hours at a time), Drunken laughing, Systematic Yeast Problems, PANDAS (Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorders Associated with Streptococcal Infection), which includes: ADHD symptoms (hyperactivity, inattention, fidgety), Separation anxiety, Sydenham’s Chorea and/or Choreiform (involuntary) movements, Mood changes (irritability, sadness, emotional liability), Sleep disturbance (insomnia), separation anxiety at bedtime, Urinary urgency or frequency/enuresis, Marked deterioration in handwriting and/or math skills, Tactile/Sensory Defensiveness, & Age Regressive Behaviors

I list all of these things, simply because I cannot imagine the life of a mother who lives day after day with her precious child suffering. It is astounding to me, that during the depths of this suffering, Rebecca found the strength to research and become educated, which ultimately lead to the recovery and healing of her daughter, Caroline.

To me, this is a beautiful love story between a mother and her daughter.

Caroline’s medical journey is long and involved and detailed. You can read about her entire journey on the Regarding Caroline website. But most importantly, Caroline’s story is a message of hope. All it takes is one determined, passionate, educated momma who chooses to recover a diagnosis, not just accept it.

“To date, Caroline’s most remarkable gains have come from treating Yeast, Methyl b-12 injections, the Specific Carbohydrate Diet, Hyperbaric Oxygen Treatments, Chelation, Homeopathy, Camels Milk and PANDAS protocol. Of course, therapy is essential and has helped Caroline tremendously, but only in conjunction with Biomedical Treatments. Every time she demonstrates large gains in skills- which are noticed at therapy sessions and/or school, it is precisely at the time we have started a biomedical treatment. When she plateaus with a treatment, no new skills have come until we try the next Biomedical treatment. Fortunately, she’s capable of rising to each new challenge with a smile”

Rebecca just published her 1st ebook. You can read it here. I can’t think of a better way to end this post than with the sweet words of this mother, that sum up perfectly this beautiful love story between a momma and her daughter:

 “I had this idea long ago about the kind of mark I wanted to leave in this world. I wanted to build something grand, something that would touch the sky. Instead, I’ve done something much, much harder, and more ambitious. I’m healing a child with autism.

I still watch “It’s a Wonderful Life” every Christmas. It’s interesting to me how I relate to it differently as I live my own life. Before Caroline’s diagnosis, I felt sorry for George, like he settled, like he missed out on his dreams.

 But dreams change. Plans change. Life is messy and complicated, and also wonderful. My dreams of leaving a mark on this world have come true.

I’m somebody very important indeed. I’m Caroline’s mom.

A girl who’s recovering from autism”

Lioness Arising Mom #3: Melanie Baldwin

IN LOVING MEMORY OF….MELANIE BALDWIN, who went to be with Jesus 3 years after this was originally posted. We love and miss you Melanie!

I’d like to introduce Lioness Arising Mother #3: Melanie Baldwin

Melanie is married to her husband Tim and they have one child, Luke. Luke was born healthy in 2001. He sat up, rolled over, crawled, walked, and said his first word on time. However, he had a very slow and gradual regression until age five. Speech never increased beyond a word or two here and there. His delays didn’t seem like a big deal until he started headbanging at age five, after three straight rounds of antibiotics. Shortly before his sixth birthday they started treating him with diet and supplements, and found that helped improve his head-banging.  Thus began their journey with biomedical treatments. Not long after that the Lord sent them a compassionate doctor who was able to gently help them understand what vaccines can do to children who are high risk–children like Luke who have parents with histories of allergies, autoimmune disorders, etc.

As Melanie says:

“Once my eyes were opened, it became very obvious what happened to Luke. You can see it in all of his photo albums…with each set of photos he is a little less “with us”. I will never stop trying to inform the world about what happened to my son, in the hopes that it will keep more children from having it happen to them. I pray that more people’s eyes are opened before it’s too late.”


Recently Melanie wrote a beautiful post. I want to share:

Vaccines, Autism, and the Evil One: A Call to God’s People

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:12

Every day on Facebook I see another tragic story: a child who has been injured, a child who has wandered off and gotten lost, or a child who has died after having a vaccine. The most recent ones are a seven-year-old girl who got sick the day after receiving a flu shot, and subsequently passed away; and a group of a dozen or so girls in New York who have suddenly come down with Tourette’s-like symptoms, including tics, twitches, and seizures. This particular story from New York is being covered up in such a way that even many of the girls’ parents have not been told what happened to their daughters.

Many people report that their children regressed into autism immediately following a set of their childhood vaccines, yet those reports are brushed off. Thousands of young girls have reported being injured from the HPV/Gardisil vaccine. A handful have even died. Yet the CDC, FDA, etc, does nothing…no recall on this vaccine that is so blatenly obviously a danger to our children, and instead, they have now approved this supposed cervical cancer vaccine for boys! What in the world is going on? Why is our medical establishment so determined to protect these vaccines?

The list of parents who insist that their children regressed into autism after vaccines is likely somewhere in the thousands. Yet these parents are brushed off, mocked and ridiculed for actually believing what they saw with their own two eyes.
We are told we can’t believe the parents. Apparently having a child with autism makes you stupid and therefore what you saw is wrong. Poor, hysterical parents.

No, instead we are told to look at and trust in “science”.

I have two big problems with this argument:

1. The “science”, the “studies” that people like to refer to, stating vaccines are “safe”- well, they just do not exist. They haven’t been done. Sure, we have a few studies on individual vaccines…completed by the very people who have everything to gain by these vaccines–PROFIT. But we have no unbiased studies. No study to prove that giving vaccine after vaccine – several at a time, most of them being jabbed in the first few precious years of life – is not dangerous and sometimes tragic for some children. There is no study proving that giving a newborn their first vaccine when they are only a few hours old is safe. The studies have NOT been done. They do not exist. Now, before you say, “I had vaccines when I was a child, and I turned out fine”, well, do some research on the amount of vaccines that you were given as a baby, and the amount that is given now. The difference is staggering.
2. My second problem with trusting in “science” is this: As a Christian, modern science has basically declared war on faith in God. Many of these same scientists that we are told we should trust would also like to convince you that you are a product of evolution, not creation. Many also tell you that life begins at birth, not conception, and that you aren’t aborting a baby, you are aborting “fetal tissue”. The title of “scientist” today seems to have become more elevated than the level that we put God on.Many of these scientists spend a lot of time trying to prove that God does not even exist. Yet many Christians continue to believe that they must trust the “science”.

Meanwhile, the health of our children continues to decline rapidly. (Our adults too, but that is a topic for another time.) Autism, ADD, ADHD, sensory issues, Tourette’s Syndrome, life-threatening food allergies, bipolar disorder–all unheard of or rare in children just a couple of decades ago–all are rapidly increasing in our children today. Our children are receiving these labels and no one seems to be asking why. The likelihood is that a number of causes are behind this. In addition to vaccines, our kids are exposed to a multitude of toxins on a daily basis. Junk/fast/processed foods have ingredient lists that can’t even be pronounced. Many toxins are being concealed under the label “artificial flavoring”. Pesticides are everywhere. Mercury is in our teeth. Lead is in our kids’ toys. Toxins are everywhere.

But instead of going to the source of the problem, we try instead to use the medications that our scientists created for us in order to resolve our symptoms.

Do you see the crazy cycle here?

And, while I am talking about toxins, let’s discuss genetically modified foods. Scientists have decided that they can improve on the food that God gave us to eat, so they alter it in a variety of ways. What? It is the same way that scientists have decided they can improve on man’s immune systems – by vaccinating us to death, or at least to serious harm.

So, where is the church in all of this?
From what I have seen, the church is right there in the middle of it all, continuing to trust in man and “science”. Oh, trust me, I am not condemning anyone. I, too, had blinders on for a long time, I vaccinated my son up to his eyeballs, I trusted and believed the system. I get it, I really do. But after what I have seen with my son and his autism, and what I have heard from my autism warrior mom friends, and after many years of praying about it, the blinders have been removed from my eyes.

A year or so ago, I was having a discussion with a friend about what I believe about vaccines and autism. She wondered if the powers-that-be really know what they were doing. I told her yes, and she asked me, why? Why are they doing it? At the time, the only answer I had was money, which didn’t seem exactly right, but it was all I had.
I have another answer now.

Yes, I do believe profit has much to do with it for a number of people involved. After all, “the love of money is the root of all evil” (I Timothy 6:10). But actually there is a bigger picture here, a reason far more sinister than most people can even imagine.

Let’s revisit Ephesians 6:12: For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.

As the mom of a child with autism, I am easily angered when I read some of the quotes about how “safe” vaccines are by the industy’s most famous pro-vax-ers. I confess even that there have been times that I wanted serious hurt to befall some of these people.
But I see the bigger picture now.

These people – scientists, doctors, drug/vaccine manufacturers – are merely pawns. They are being used – played by their sinister sick evil wanna-be-god Satan, and probably don’t even know it. Satan is using these guys to accomplish his work – destroying God’s people. He wants to make you sick, very sick, and die. He wants to make you angry and curse God. That’s what he is all about. He is doing it very much the same way that he first manipulated Eve to eat the forbidden apple – by convincing her that you can be a better person than God created you to be. He manipulates us with fearmongering and scare tactics – “You don’t want your child to get measels, do you?” – and he tricks us into altering our immune systems with vaccines by telling you that you will be “healthier” than God made you to be in the first place. He is doing the same thing by altering our food supply – convincing you that man can improve on what God made, making better food than God ever could.

Unfortunately, most people cannot see it! Satan is clever, doing his evil in secret, disguising it as “good”…just as he did in the garden of Eden.

Please, I am begging my Christian brothers and sisters here, please take what I am saying to you before the Lord and ask Him if it is true. Go to Him without fear, with your mind open, and trust Him that if what I am saying is true, you don’t have to be afraid. God will take care of you. Ask God to remove any blinders that you may have on, and to show you TRUTH. Look, it took me YEARS to get my blinders fully removed. It was a process. I know God knew I couldn’t handle this truth in one big swoop. But I also know that He has called me to this…to take His light and shine it on the evil one, and expose what he is doing. And that is what I am doing now. Please prayerful consider this. Please.

If you are reading this and you are not a Christian, I am begging you also to consider what I have said here. I assure you I am not crazy, Satan DOES exist, he IS real and he DOES want to hurt you. It is easy and natural to think people like Paul Offit and the like are causing all of this, purely for money. But consider in your heart how this sort of sinister plan to be created and carried out by man alone. How has this been kept a secret for so long? Doesn’t it seem like there is something else at work here, for the truth to be denied and covered up on such a large scale? I submit to you today that this entire scenario is much bigger and darker than most of us ever realized. If you want to talk to me about this further, feel free to send me a private message. I would love to talk to you about God and His Son, Jesus…who will, one day (and I believe it is very soon) put an end to all of this mess and call His children home, and then he will destroy the evil one.

Yes, I believe Jesus is returning, very very soon.

I testify to you today, January 21, 2012, that what I have just written is the truth that God has revealed to me after many many hours of seeking answers in prayer. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. (James 1:5) I pray that you will examine this for yourselves and that your eyes will be opened.

In Him,

Lioness Arising Mom #2: Laurie Annie

This is a series of blogs highlighting different warrior mothers that I know.
If you missed the Introduction to this series, you can read it here:
Lioness Arising Mothers

Now I’d like to introduce Lioness Arising Mother #2: Laurie Annie

The best way to highlight these amazing mothers is through their own words.
This is written by my friend Laurie. It’s about her life and the life of her precious son.

The Mother Lion
C. S. Lewis wrote, “Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn!”
I often use this quote as I share our experience with our son’s vaccine injury. In just one morning of reading the newspaper headline – “you must vaccinate your child or they cannot attend school” – I chose to vaccinate. Little did I know that this choice would change our lives forever. In hindsight, I wished I’d listened to that still small voice in me cry out – don’t vaccinate – but my worries of breaking the law overshadowed the instinct I felt in my heart about vaccine safety.

Just as many other parents do, I allowed the media’s lies to fearfully override my Godly instincts. I sadly chose to believe the message of government entities like the CDC , FDA and big pharma. This message is tainted with their vested interest in the current vaccines, which causes them to be often swayed by greed and control. To learn more about the vaccine-injury controversy, I highly recommend , Deadly Immunity by Robert F. Kennedy Jr. His article in the June 2005 issue of Rolling Stone magazine unfolds the disappointing truth behind the efforts to conceal the negative impacts of vaccines on children and their families. That was years ago and now, having educated myself on the subject, I want to share what I’ve learned so that everyone can make an informed choice.

Just one hour after allowing my son to be vaccinated with the required M.M.R and D.T.P , he began to run a fever between 102 and 104, lasting two weeks followed by a rash. For the next four weeks he would struggle with the smell cooking food and couldn’t consume food without gagging or vomiting. This went on for almost a month along with chronic diarrhea, until he dropped five pounds. Everything he attempted to eat would either come up or run out of him. What was happening to my once healthy, happy, bouncing boy that I nurtured and nursed for the first eighteen months of his life? Wasn’t this vaccine suppose to build up the immune system?

The following months were spent running from doctor to specialist and three different medical clinics resulting in not one answer to give him hope! As he slowly turned to skin and bones, the mother lion in me awakened! In the following months through my research I came upon a promising article online from Dr. Joseph Mercola. He spoke about vaccine-injured children and shared success stories of recovery. After tears and prayers in the evening while my son would experience more stomach pains than he could handle as he’d speak those haunting words he’d say to me often, “Mommy I just want to go home to be with Jesus!”, I decided to make an appointment to visit Dr. Mercola’s clinic in Illinois. Mercola’s nutritionist enlightened me with a final diagnosis on our son called “leaky gut syndrome”.

Mercola’s team were not the only doctors trying to make sense of what was happening to children after vaccines. Dr. Wakefield, a British gastroenterologist is well known for his controversial study that links the MMR (Measles, Mumps, Rubella) vaccine with autism. Many doctor’s want to discredit his research, it is fueled with many stories of parents describing their children as developmentally normal until they have their MMR vaccine at around fifteen months old. Then as we experienced shortly after they develop severe bowel problems. Why were most doctors unwilling to make a connection? I’m so thankful for doctors like Mercola and Wakefield who are willing to go against the grain of Western medicine, which is so heavily influenced by the Pharmaceutical industry.

That was more than five years ago. Since then, Wakefield has studied bowel disease in children with autism. He has identified an inflammatory condition that seems to be linked to the MMR vaccine, which at that time contained a mercury preservative. His study was published in The Lancet, a British medical journal. Dr. Wakefield lost his job after refusing to back down from the findings . (

After learning so much about this condition and how my son could no longer digest the difficult proteins in gluten/wheat or casein/dairy. I now had to learn how to cook that would bring healing to all of the damage that had been done. I followed Dr. Mercola’s nutritionist advise and purchased a book written by Jordan Ruben called “The Makers Diet” which taught me about healing with foods as in fermented kraut and purine from slow cooked meat on bones. Little did I know that this would become a passion in my life as we saw our helpless 39-pound son slowly regain his health and weight in just six months. The stomach pains subsided after about one year and I knew we must move forward and make this lifestyle change. I was motivated to quit my job, sell our beautiful home in the country and downsize to make important sacrifices that would regain our son’s health back again. Most of the doctoring was out of pocket and not supported by insurance. The daily supplements were not covered as well because they were not approved of by our FDA even though they helped him recover.

Through this all, I’ve become a hero in my son’s eyes as he experienced healing….. the Mother Lion never gave up. But I now ask, why didn’t the newspaper include the truth that in Minnesota we are allowed all three exemptions for vaccines…being medical, conscientious and religious? By turning over to the backside of the required vaccination forms all I needed was a public notary signature along with mine to exempt my son instead of turning my son’s life over. Thankfully, through prayer and research I found that light in natural medicine. I’ve become actively involved in our community giving classes on gluten-free lifestyle as well as teaching the benefits of fermented foods. I’ve become an advocate of educating before you vaccinate by providing sound resources and research. I’ve also learned to cook, create and modify recipes to accommodate a gluten/casein-free nutritional diet.

In closing, I’d love to share another famous quote from C.S. Lewis, “God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world” . Through this difficult experience, I hope to make a change and pray that as a country we are roused and learn that when our body says pain, its time for a change…a lifestyle change in healthy living!

Knowledge is Power! Go get some…
Until then….many more Lioness Arising Mothers to come…

These first billboards made their appearance on August 5, 20122 in Evansville Indiana.
Paid for by parents of vaccine injured children. 
No shots, No School…Not True billboard

Lioness Arising Mom #1: Lisa Joyce Goes

This is the first blog post in a Series called Lioness Arising Mothers 

Lioness Arising Mother #1: Lisa Joyce Goes. She goes by LJ.
Don’t mess with LJ.


Lisa Joyce Goes is co-founder of The Thinking Moms’ Revolution, co-author of The Thinking Moms’ Revolution and President of the non-profit, Team TMR, an organization that strives to bring treatment to families who’ve suffered the tragic effects of environmental autism. She is a contributing editor for Age of Autism, and former Human Rights Panelist for The Academy of Excellence in Learning. She is wife to Dave Goes and mom to three beautiful children, Madeleine, Noah, and Liam. Noah is presently recovering from iatrogenic/environmental autism.

Lisa’s beautiful boy Noah has been medically diagnosed with “leaky gut” which can be thanked for the elevated titre of measles in his intestines that are destroying his bowels, metal levels off the charts and no immunity to polio despite being vaxed. In addition, he cannot stop producing antibodies for varicella. Noah suffers greatly with mitochondrial dysfunction, bowel disease and immune compromise; all serious medical conditions that were diagnosed as autism. He is one sick boy in addition to his diagnosis of Autism.

The best way to tell LJ’s story is through her own words. LJ writes about her world in daily posts on her fb page.

I’m going to share only a few of LJ’s posts. These posts are raw, emotional, gut-wrenching, and awe-inspiring. LJ is truthful, honest, and scientifically & medically sound.

Written from the heart of a mother. A mother who is fully and dangerously awake.
A Lioness Arising…


POST #1:

This evening, my 3 yo Liam opens a book. It was a picture book about helicopters. He sits at the kitchen island and pretends he his reading…this is what he says about his brother Noah:

“Noah is screaming. Noah, for longtime always, screams. He is sick. He jumps on the counters and mommy can’t get him off. He is very mad and he yells and cries and shakes. My ears hurt so bad. Mommy looks mad and she is tired …in her eyes. Mad is upstairs. She goes away. I’m sad.”

For you parents who don’t get it yet, I had a delightful baby. So good, I got pregnant again 6 months after having him. He was a breeze. Delightful. Except he was a little jaundiced, a bit swollen, didn’t really wanna eat and had eczema. If this describes your child currently, keep vaxing on schedule and you too can soon be me. You can listen to your super smart, sweet 3 year old tell you about what it’s like to watch his brother suffer. What it’s like to be potty trained when his brother isn’t, what it’s like to express himself when his brother can’t. What it’s like to live day in and day out with OCD so powerful it prevents his brother from setting foot on the ground, he must, at all times, be on the countertops. He must at all times, be screaming. He must at all times, be jumping, running, stimming, screaming, repeat. He fights getting dressed, he fights going to the bathroom, he fights brushing his teeth, combing his hair, learning how to properly eat and sit in a chair. His whole life, since his 12 month vaccinations he has been fighting.

Dear Morally Bankrupt Omniscient Pharma, This boy is my son. His NAME IS NOAH PATRICK GOES. He is a human being. You took his central nervous system. His vestibular system. His neurological functioning. His bowels. His eyesight. Tomorrow you plan to take away the supplements that give him peace. You wear me down. You break my children’s hearts. You take our money. You attempt to destroy my family on a daily basis. But, you will never ever win. I will. I WILL…ME…Lisa…Joyce…Goes….I WILL DESTROY YOU. One FB post, one letter, one phone call, one parent, one neighbor, one doctor, one school, one community, one city, one state at time. Remember his name, Noah Patrick Goes. NOAH. PATRICK. GOES. HE MATTERS. HIS LIFE MATTERS. From the bottom of my heart… LJ


Poor Innocent Person to me: You know, LJ, you are such a strong person. I know you will see what a blessing autism is. Really. Look at your Noah, he is such a blessing.

LJ: Yes, he is a blessing. He, his siblings and their father are my greatest gifts on earth. But, I do not consider the daily pain with which he struggles a blessing. I do not consider that a blessing. I do not consider the measles infesting his intestines, nor the colonized bugs in his gut and the resulting clostridia overgrowth making it impossible for him to control his body and actions, a blessing. I do not consider his aluminum and cadmium poisoning, a blessing. I do not consider his neurological, nervous system, vestibular system, immune system and bowel dysfunction blessings. Would you say to someone whose daughter had just been raped, what a blessing it was? Would you say to the parent of a child diagnosed with leukemia, what a blessing it was? No. But to a parent who took their child in for their 12 well baby visit and subsequently lost them to “autism” society gives the green light to tell said parents they have been “blessed.”

Our son Noah is an extraordinary blessing. It is for that reason that I must correct you and anyone else who sees fit to call his daily pain and suffering a blessing. He wouldn’t want you or any other human being thinking the damage he endures every second of his life was a divine gift. The divine gift, the “blessing” is knowing what we know about his condition, communing other seekers, healers, scientists, doctors, and educators–so that Noah, and others like him, can prevent this heinous damage from happening to someone YOU love. Rubella destroying his eyesight, a blessing. I do not consider the measles infesting his intestines, nor the colonized bugs in his gut and the resulting clostridia overgrowth making it impossible for his to control his body and actions, a blessing. I do not consider his aluminum poisoning, a blessing. I do not consider his neurological, nervous system, vestibular system, immune system and bowel dysfunction blessings. Would you say to someone whose daughter had just been raped, what a blessing it was? Would you say to the parent of a child diagnosed with leukemia, what a blessing it was? No. But to a parent who took their child in for their 12 well baby visit and subsequently lost them to “autism” society gives the green light to tell said parents they have been “blessed.”

POST #3:

I seriously love Prosecco. It’s such a festive drink and it’s my favored libation during the holidays. For the most part, it just makes me feel giggly and light hearted. As I sit here, hammering away at my computer, investigating oxalates, vitamin D, and autistic entercolitis with the fervor of a grad student, I admire the glass I’ve poured. It’s a pretty pale champagne, little bubbles popping to the top, the elegant glass is which it was poured is the only one left of 6. Our beautiful son Noah, despite the removal of three island stools, four kitchen chairs, and two sitting chairs, has managed to learn how to scale the kitchen cabinets to get on top of the counters. He likes to shatter glass. I think, mostly because, it’s very rewarding. A million shards, firing off in all different directions, it’s a violent and bloody act. It’s his way of communicating to us what is happening in his body. What it feels like when he tries to digest food the rest of us take for granted. Food that seeps through the hundreds of painful holes in his intestines caused by the measles virus from an MMR that was manufactured without a quality check point. A vaccine manufactured without concern for damage to babies and toddlers because of it’s great and unchecked legislative freedom. This virus wreaks havoc on Noah’s neurological functioning, his nervous system, his immune system, and of course his bowels. Several times of day, a foul smelling yellow and black paste is emitted from his bowels, terrible welts on his bottom and legs, open sores, yeast, die off, and periods of blank stares. And shattered glass.

Go right on continuing to believe that autism is psychological. I will save you my glass of Prosecco so we can have a long chat when you come around. For some reason, I’m just not in the mood for it anymore. I’m off to study immunological disease, mitochondrial dysfunction and chronic dysbiosis. Yeah, us autism moms. What a bunch of celebrity following dimwitted numskulls…

POST #4:

Dear Pharma, Today you win. You do. I have nothing left to give you. No fight. I wish so much that would satiate you–that taking all these good and productive people would satisfy your greed. But, sadly, no. Thousands of kids around the world will be born into chronic disease today. Thousands will return from their well baby visits with their voices stolen, the damage to their swollen brains …undetected for months before the great benefits of “early diagnosis” kick in. Today, utterly defeated and totally histrionic I have only one plea. Parent, soon-to-be-parents, know your rights. When it comes to preventative health care those rights are dissipating with each passing day. If your child is harmed you will not get answers. You will not get help. You will be given pills, a pamphlet, and a pat on the back while you are told “no cure.” And the few researchers left who still employ their medical and scientific curiosity will become the needles in a haystack YOU will have to find. With no sleep, no help, no resources, and every single person with a stethoscope telling you recovery is not possible. Searching the haystack on your own. You know they are wrong. Do your research. Avoid this reality. Best, lj

POST #5:

It turns out a child in the throws of mitochondrial disease, encephalitis, bowel dysfunction, and die-off can indeed climb a wall. Something so truly terrible is happening within them their physical being can actually defy gravity. And, they can do it consistently, for hours on end, from 3:00 in the morning to 6:47. While they scream, cry, scratch and sob. This post brought to you courtesy of the greatest psychiatric ponzi scheme ever known to man. The medical disease disguised as AUTISM.

Guess what America? Your chronically sick kid? Got a neurological problem? Autism? OCD? Docs tellin’ ya to jump on the anti-psychotic bandwagon? You really need to read this paper. Autism: Oxidated Stress, Inflamation, & Immune Abnormalities

Really. Stop saying you can’t. You’re not smart enough. You’re not a doctor. Please. Because that is what your doctor and the pharma reps that take him out to lunch everyday are hoping and praying you will say. If you want to KNOW, TRULY REALLY KNOW what happened to your kid, it’s all right. There. Do not read this book in the same room with a firearm. DO read this book with a glass of wine and a medical dictionary. And when you are finished, give it to your doctor and your local state representative and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. This epidemic could have BEEN STOPPED. WE COULD STOP IT NOW. But our government and their financial backers, pHARMa are banking on the fact that you will not figure it out. They keep recycling powerfully flawed science (late life babies, babies with big heads, babies by the freeway, babies with mean moms, it’s always been around) because they know when enough of us discover the truth it is going to mean lawsuits. Lots and lots and lots of lawsuits. They know our country cannot survive this sort of financial stressor. They know the public’s faith in our system with all but disappear. Frankly, I don’t know what the answer is. I just know the truth has to come out, for all our damaged children. Please, for your child’s sake.

POST #6:

I’m just a mom. A mom with a really sick kid. I spend my days reading books and calling doctors. It’s what I do everyday, and have done everyday, for over 3 years now. All I can say for SURE…as a matter of FACT…is this:

If your pediatrician DOES NOT ask you if you have a history of allergies, asthma, autism, ADHD or auto-immune disease in your family BEFORE he vaccinates your baby, he is NOT IN POSSESSION OF THE KNOWLEDGE required to vaccinate your child responsibly. PERIOD. PERIOD! FIND A NEW DOCTOR WHO UNDERSTANDS THE SCIENCE. If he does ask and you answer YES to any of the above and he tells you “you should be fine” he is guilty of MEDICAL MISCONDUCT and should be reported. Carry

POST #7:
Dear Concerned “Autism Specialist”,
Thank you for letting me know your opinion today about the path we have chosen for our son. I understand you feel that an organic diet and medically accepted and endorsed treatments in Italy, Switzerland, and Germany are not “normal”. I am fairly certain you used the word “normal” 4 times. My son is not “normal”. Autism, is not “normal”. What he suffersdaily is not “normal.” And your desperation to make him and all his friends “normal” will eventually make you crazy. Thank you for your opinion. I choose not to take it. I choose hope and recovery. And, frankly scientific evidence. Your opinion, while very normal and acceptable to many, offers neither. How I feel for the families you counsel.
Best, lj
Oh and P.S. medicating kids, doesn’t make them “normal” either.
Just makes em medicated (but still sick!) 

POST #8:
A little girl was playing in her yard to my left, all by herself. She was wearing sunglasses and pretending to model. She was playing with her toys, having a ball. As I gazed at her the great peace and appreciation I had for the moment shattered into a million pieces. “Will she get sick with her next round of shots? Will they say what they have said to so many of my friends…sometimes…this just happens, we don’t know why. Kids this age (2, 3, 5, 10, 19) frequently develop (fill in the blank) asthma, allergies, auto-immune compromise, juvenile arthritis, juvenile diabetes, juvenile arthritis, neurological dysfunction and learning disabilities. It’s very common now. Don’t forget to pick up your 6 prescriptions on the way out.”

I do not know how to stop it. I do not know how to condense everything I know and make it into a digestible message that can help people instantaneously. Because no matter how hard I try to package, re-write, re-state, edit it…the underlying fundamental truth is always the same.

You children are NOT safe in the confines of the current medical system. Your doctor is shielded from incredibly important and life saving information and studies because they do not jive with the current flow of pharmaceutical interventions. They do not know how to treat the body as a whole anymore. They have lost their ability to investigate and question because anytime their findings are not in agreement with the groupthink that controls the message, they are blackballed and professionally slaughtered. Many of them have lost their moral compass. I have been told by many they know the harm that vaccines do but they feel “powerless” to stop it, because pharma runs, everything. I tell them they are powerless, if they continue to choose silence over the truth.

Babies are being sacrificed everyday. It is time to stop it. To take a stand. It’s time FOR A REVOLUTION. Please, educate yourself and your neighbors. Respectfully, LJ Goes

POST #9: 
Today I was told that autism, at the very greatest was a disability,
but it is in no way an illness. This was my response.

With deepest respect, I am a full time autism activist and essayist. I have dedicated my life to the political and medical investigation of autism. My son has metabolic and methylation failure, resulting in neurological and central nervous system dysfunction that presents as Autism. I thought, after doing years of research, traveling around the country and talking to research physicians that are under threat of losing their licenses because they are uncovering the very real environmental impetus to “autism”, that my son was a rare bird. That, perhaps, it was just him and everyone else’s child had “the real autism”. No. Not the case at all. Many, many children have undiagnosed mito, undiagnosed autistic entercolitis (which my son suffers from) and many other auto-immune viral anomalies that contribute to the breakdown in mental function of children severely affected with “autism”. Most doctors are unqualified to diagnose and taught to look away from the very real iatrogenic implications of this profound problem that is on it’s way to bankrupting our nation. Full time. This is my job. 7 days a week. Research, speak to doctors, to universities, to other parents, to labs, to government officials. This is what I do. It is what I KNOW. Children are very very ill. No one wants to believe because of what it means. I am terribly sorry to present the facts in this manner. I do not know what else to do when I see the needless suffering of precious precious children on an ongoing basis. I always tell parents to take a step back. Observe their precious one. One night, when my boy was crying and screaming inconsolably I just stayed by his side. I let him hit me over and over and over and over again. He was barely verbal at the time. After and hour and half of this, after bloodying my cheek and scratching the skin off my nose, he finally whispered as he looked into my eyes, “it hurts.” Many parents, when they stop to pay attention to what THEY see, instead of what they are told to believe, make the same observation. Then, they get to work. Respectfully, LJ

POST #10:
Dear AAP,
With all due respect, when you have a parent whose child became ill and developed cerebral palsy at the age of two weeks from Pertussis speak, is it your intention to suggest that we start vaxing our children at two weeks? Because, my son at 12 months had a horrible reaction to Dtap and is now violently allergic to several foods. Please, PLEASE, do your research. Please, at the very least know what is in the shots. And please, inform parents that if they have a genetic history of allergies, asthma, AUTO-IMMUNE illness or autism, the odds are very very likely just ONE SHOT could cause irreparable auto-immune and inflammatory damage to a vulnerable child. I implore you to educate yourselves. You cannot continue to consider yourselves authority figures when you patrol facebook for educated moms who may be sharing the truth with others and treat them as criminals who must be on lock down. We are educated. There are many of us. And we know what you’ve done to our children. We know this first step, “the balanced conversation webinars” and “End the Controversy” dictates are because we have begun to affect sales figures. Our truth is undeniable. We know the science. Sales go first. When you get desperate what will happen? Sales are already dropping. Pharmaceuticals (which pay your salaries) are our number one export as you know. What will you do? I will tell you what we will do. We will educate ourselves and rebuild our country. A country that now knowingly harms many, for the good of more. UNACCEPTABLE dirty, lazy, medicine.  Best, lj goes

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So there you have it friends. 10 posts from a facebook newsfeed in the life of what autism looks like. This is the real world.  

Update: *This post was written in 2012. Noah is now potty trained and verbal, thanks to the many interventions Lisa and her husband Dave have pursued. HE struggles still with metabolic issues and has yet to overcome his varicella, as IVIG has been proved the most effective treatment, but is not readily available to families in the autism community. He continues to inspire his family and those around him everyday with his powerful faith, determination, and grace.

Lioness Arising Mothers

Over time, I have been met more and more women who fit the title of a
“Warrior Mom”.  I have met these women from all different parts of the country.
They come to me in unexpected ways, that only God can ordain.
They all have the same thing in common: Their children were taken from them.
They all have one common purpose: To spread truth.
They want to spare other mothers from the pain of watching their own child disappear before their eyes. And knowing exactly why.

These mothers will never go away. Ever. And everyday they are growing in numbers.

“If there ever comes a time when the women of the world come together purely and simply for the benefit of mankind, it will be a force such as the world has never known”
-Matthew Arnold, Nineteeth-Century British Poet and Philosopher


During this season of my life when the Lord started placing these mothers in my life, I had a righteous anger to tell their stories and share their truths. During this time, I was also getting a lot of slack from my community of Christian friends and mentors. At one time, someone I looked up to called me and said “Jessica, you really need to watch your facebook posts on vaccines. They are very controversial. Jesus wasn’t controversial”. Really?!? I’m not one to get into religious debates, but I’m pretty sure Jesus was. None the less, I know how to follow instinct and truth.

Shortly after this disheartening conversation, I read the book Lioness Arising. If I didn’t know better, I would have thought this book was written for me and all my new Warrior Mom friends. It almost gave me the permission I needed to shout their truths from the rooftops. I found an injustice and I was ready to tell the world.

 While reading the book Lioness Arising, I started feeling like maybe the name “Warrior Moms” wasn’t a strong enough title for these mothers. I decided my Warrior Moms needed a new name, so I named them Lioness Arising Mothers, after the book. This is a blog series highlighting these different mothers, all of whom I am humbled and honored to not only know, but to call friends.

First, what is a Lioness Arising?
Here are just a few highlights from the book (which I HIGLY recommend)
Have you ever read a book that single handedly changed the path of your life? That’s what this book has become for me!


Lioness Arising :Wake Up And Change Your World
by: Lisa Bevere

“To all my lioness sisters
who feel something wild, fierce,
and beautiful stirring within them.
You are stunning.
You were born for this moment.
Don’t be afraid of your strength, questions, or insights.
Awaken, rise up, and dare to realize
all you were created to be.”
-Lisa Bevere

How will you respond when you are fully, dangerously awake?
What history will you make? Will you, like the fierce lioness, awaken from a tranquilized state and rise up to defend your family, your community, your world? Are you awake? Even now, what is stirring in your heart?

 Could it be we’ve been awakened in this moment?  I challenge you to ponder this idea of women coming together for good. Will the women of our time yet rise above the many conflicting and limiting worldwide cultural and religious images? Will we in the Western world turn from frivolous distractions and focus our attention on worthy and noble causes? Will we apprehend the gravity and urgency of our time and lay aside our doctrinal differences and opinions in order to join ranks?

Even the lioness knows she must stretch before she attempts to pounce.
I’ve seen many women terrified by their own strength. They recoil in fear if ideas, questions, or passions arise unbidden within them. Strength is not to be feared; it is to be embraced. Walking the realm of good outside of God limits us. Our present world issues are so incredibly vast they need limitless answers. So, lovely one, will you dare to believe that you might be a part of this revelation of good and therefore gather with others and strategize so God’s goodness will be seen through us?

I have intentionally not limited this “good” to the realm of “nice” or even “safe”.
It is a force, after all. I have likewise heard virtue described as a force.

Can we be trusted with this charge? Will we enrich the lives of those around us?
Will we be at once both capable and virtuous? We need an honorable gathering of virtuous women who are well able.

Talented and gifted
Fearless yet honoring
Connected yet self-contained
Present yet far-reaching
Compassionate yet fierce
Pure not naïve
Strong and gentle
Simple yet highly strategic

Far too many of us are discouraged, sedated, or sadly unaware of what’s really going on in the world.

The world needs you, lovely lioness sister, not to merely wake up, but to give expression to your God-given fierce side. What does it look like for a Christian woman to be fierce? Is it yelling, screaming, clawing, and kicking. There might be a time for that.

“Like a bear whose cubs have been taken away,
I will tear out your heart.
I will devour you like a hungry lioness
And mangle you like a wild animal”
-Hosea 13:8

God does not need a band of domesticated daughters who spend their days baking and behaving well. Nothing wrong with baking, but if that is all we do, God won’t use us to change history.

“Well-behaved women rarely make history”
–Laurel Thatcher Ulrich

And now I proudly introduce the Lioness Arising Mother Series! Sharing personally stories from mothers who are fighting an injustice and want the world to know their truth!

Whatever injustice you’ve found in this world…go fight it.
The world is waiting for you!



Lioness Arising Mom #1: LJ Goes (Thinking Moms Revolution)

Lioness Arising Mom #2: Laurie Annie

Lioness Arising Mom #3: Melanie Baldwin (Thinking Moms Revolution)

Lioness Arising Mom #4: Rebecca Ferguson (Regarding Caroline)

Lioness Arising Mom #5: Melissa Vega

Lioness Arising Mom #6: Kim Spencer (Thinking Moms Revolution)

Lioness Arising Mom #7: Rainna Moran (Chase Answers)

Lioness Arising Mom #8: Robyn Charron (Huffington Post Interview)

Lioness Arising Mom#9: Robin Maiocca